Sometimes I just wish I could disappear. I hate sitting and here and knowing that right now they're saying how no one likes me, i can't do anything... etc. Just the other day I went skiing and i made a facebook status saying "8 hours of skiing today(:" and they said "correction: 8 hours of sitting on top of the hill eating snow and not going down." Me being me, I believe them. I believe everything they say about me. I believe it when they say that I will never get a boyfriend and all my friends say to them how they don't want to hang out with me and they only do out of pity. After being tormented and then ignored every day, it's starting to get to me. I can feel it tiring me out. I can see the result in my grades at school. I can see it in my swollen eyes and tear streaked cheeks. i can hear it my mind when it keeps repeating itself making me hate everything ten times more. I just don't know what to do or what will help. I try talking to someone... it's just hard. nothing seems to help and it feels like words can't even express how much anger I feel. How much sadness. I told my guidance counselor I wanted to get homeschooled but he said that I would be running away from them and letting them win. Right now I don't care if they win. I don't care if I seem weak because I already know I am. All I want is to get away from them and their torturous selves.