oceaneyes_x3

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Joined: December 29, 2009
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Quotes by oceaneyes_x3

I just want you to hold me tightly and make me feel important again.

Not good enough.
Ugly.
Wannabe.
Weird.
Awkward.
Acne.
Frizzy Hair.
Crazy.
Dumb.
Lame.
Stupid.
Single.


/////////////Does anyone else feel this way?

   I'm afraid to go to sleep at night.
Because I know I'll wake up crying. And that my dreams will torment me to no end.

I'm a wreck.
I've been crying all weekend, feeling broken. I'll feel that way tomorrow.
But I'm gonna put on makeup, wear that shirt you loved. I'm gonna straighten my hair perfectly. I'm gonna be the prettiest thing you've ever seen. I'm gonna smile at you when I walk by. You won't know what hit you. As soon as I turn the corner, I'm gonna break down, run to the bathroom, and cry. Because you were holding her hand.

 

 

 why yes I am this bored.
_______Bests_______
1. male friend: Bryan.
2. Best female friend: uhh, hannahsydneylunabrittany.  
3. Vacation: Maine <3
4. age: 15
5. memory: september 23rd 2010.

_______Worsts_______
1. Time of day: 5:30 in the morning x)
2. Day of the week: tuesday
3. Food: red meat, eewwie.  

4. Memory: fighting parents 
5. Subject: english, i suck.
_______Lasts_______
1. Person you saw: brohaha. 
2. Talk on the phone: mommy,
3. Hugged: i dunno, haha.  

_______Firsts_______
1. Kiss: :Bryan
2. Car: none yet ;D 
3. First school: helen e james. stalk me. jk.
4. Job: babysitting? doesn't even count really.

_______Today_______
1. What are you doing now: sitting in my bed listening to tay swiftt. 2. Tonight:  sleeping forever.
3. Wearing: pj pants and a sweater.
4. What did you eat for lunch:  uh, ravioli ;D
5: Better than yesterday:  i guess kinda.

_______Tomorrow_______
1. Is:  turkey day!
2. Got any plans: my grandma's and a bonfiree.
3. Goal: have a good day.
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: the awkwardness of my extended family.
5. Do you have work:  yeah at night, babysitting yay.

_______Faves_______
1. Number: 9.
2 Song: right now, haunted or last kiss by taylor swift. or my kinda party by jason aldean.
3. Colors: green, blue, purple
4.Season: summer.
5. State: maine, colorado, nevada
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_______Currently_______
1. Are you in love?: I don't know, but I think I was and I possibly still am.
2. Dating someone: no.
3.Missing someone:  More than anything.
4. Mood: disappointed, screwed over, hopeful, excited, twisted.



You asked me to be your girlfriend again. I was overjoyed, so relieved. We hugged, I remember the smell of your sweatshirt. You promised to never leave me again. You held me in your arms so tight and I felt so safe again.

 Then I woke up.

 

I see you with her, and I feel crippling pain go through my body. Tears spring to my eyes and I put my face down and bite my lip. I feel you staring at me. I look up with pain in my eyes, but you smile and say hi. I barely squeak out one back, & you're gone. With her.

i'm really not okay.




&+ When I cry at night I have to really quiet so my 10 year old sister doesn't hear me.