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AS always things change, time goes on, but deep down..

I can't hep but know that your my internal sorrow, my external compassion. Because you were in my life I lived life through I took risks to know that there will always be you.

Aparently i can't help but crawling back to that same sensation.
When i liked you i realized things would never be the same.. I'd always have feelings
And for what reasons?.. I have no clue.
Because in knowing i liked you i was prepared to be hurt.
Knowing that you'd always love her.. & knowing you'd never care
All that's left are my wishes, wishes to high out of reach.
To push myself through hell for the one guy that thinks nothing of me.
Why not? I felt different. I felt love.
And going through everything for you.. that's a path I'd love to lead.

she strikes a pretty pose&&dies on the inside .. nobody knows she's such a beautiful suicide

excuse me please. one more drink. could you make it
strong cause i dont need to think. he broke my heart.
my grace is gone. another drink and ill move on.

Why is it that every word you say to me is so cruel.
But i keep coming back for more, you've hit your target.
I'll stand here to watch.. watch you break me into peices.
And as all drugs do they addict you.. and you've done the same to me. Cuz all i no is that i was your target and you hit me o so easily.i'm in your trap your follish game, but i cant help but go insane, to kno im heading straight toward rejection.Because you, my dear, are my drug and i'm soo totally addicted.

.. & & how is that the one person you can't stand,
is he one person you can't live without.

Create a disaster.. There's always tomorrow.

.. And if tomorrow never comes.. remember what it was you lived for, there all the reason you struggled longer, to achieve what you've had and what you got. And why you're still depicting it.

..&& why is it that every word you say to me is so cruel, but i keep coming back for more. Its like ur the drug and i cant stop. Every insult makes me want more.I guess you could say..
I'm addicted to you.
But once again i feel as if rejected by you.

My agony and pain

Your my strength,my reasoning,my returning agony and pain.
You keep me alive and alert, but for those of
such awareness should already conclude...
That i see you as my light in a dark tunnel,
As my reluctant strive for pain..
And as i see you coming i cant help but feel ashamed..

To know that your my torture for unreasoning return to once again concluding my agony and pain..