paigeharman_05

Dear someone,

I cry everyday over the same thing.....

I wear baggy cloths almost everyday to hide what was taken from me. Im alone. I try to fit in but its no use, im TOO different. My contacts turn my eyes red, so it must mean im on crack. I have fake teeth, a long tongue, one diple, one ear is taller then the other, so it must mean im some alien. I cant even look at myself in the mirror without hearing voices yelling at me. "YOU UGLY FAT EGOR, NOBODY LIKES YOU" "YOUR FAT." "WHY DONT YOU JUST GO KILL YOURSELF, ITS NOT LIKE ANYONE WOULD CARE." "YOU SUCK" All i ever wanted was to fit in. All i have ever done in this world is try to impress, but everything i had done was worthless. Nobody would give me a chance to prove myself.... I JUST WANT HAPPINESS. Is that to much to ask for?? I pretend that everything is fine, that nothing is hurting. But i cant pretend anymore.... My cracked walls are now showing and everything i have done and known is gushing out. Im slowly becoming empty, ill soon be nothing.