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I hate me.

No, I don't want attention, this is me actually venting.
I make everyone think I'm okay, theres nothing wrong,
Inside, I'm dying, I don't want for a second for any one to think that I don't have it "together"
I worry every day that maybe someone will finally realize how many problems I really have.
I'm made up, no one really knows the real me, how badly I'm depressed.
Everyone thinks I'm the funny girl who doesn't have a care in the world.
I just wish I could be someone else.

I can't pretend 
that it doesn't kill me to see you with her
I can't pretend
that it doesn't bother me when you tell me you don't care for me
I can't pretend
that I don't look at you at lunch just for the simple fact there might be a time when I look back and your looking too.
I can't pretend
that I don't look at your facebook page 20,034,434 times a day
I can't pretend
that you don't cross my mind
I can't pretend
that I'm happy for you
I can't pretend
that I don't miss you
I can't pretend
that I don't love you.
♥


 

Repeating the words, I don't care.
I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care.
but we all know all you do is care..
nmf