pateycakes

I knew him for six years, and when he moved to Toronto we stayed in touch, txting everyday, and calling on the weekends.   he was my best friend. I trusted him,i loved him.May 14 12:48 he passed away. he killed himself.i was the last one talking to him. he txted me for hours that night before he did it. when i stopped txting he promised he wasn't going to do anything dumb. he said he was fine. but i guess something changed...the point of this story is  not to make you feel sorry for me.  it is to make you see that you never know when someone is going to leave your life. i planned  on having him around all my life, i thought i would have years to tell him the things i wanted to, but now i can't. tell the things you want people to know. you never know when you will lose them. and don't let those words be hateful. because you never know what those words could make someone do.

I will always have the scars of my old life, to remind me I can survive.

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What is wrong with me?

Witty what a waster of time!

I need someone to talk to....

I don't know if I will go to school tomorrow, why? because my eyes might be swoolen from crynig al night. you were my best friend, i looked up to you so much. you were the reason i wa getting better. now we are done and i don even knows whos fault it is....

I just posted this on facebook, it's to a guy friend....it broke my heart to do it but I don't deserve to be treated the way he treats me....  You take all the time you need, because i'm done. I know i am not the best person in the world but i don't deserve to be treated like crap over and over again. I messed up and I will do it again i'm sure,it's called growing up. But I am tired of feeling like I can't be myself, I am tired of trying to not make you mad at the smallest things. you're not a bad person and I will still stand up for you, but if I mean that little to you, I'm done...  

Started wearing make-up, that's what studying for exams has done to me. lack of sleep, not eating, stressed, smoking too much, losing social life, cranky 24/7. yea better cover that crap up...

Exams
are gonna kill me