planetxar_the_1st

We were all kids once. I remember everything about this site. This was my home back then. My comfort. My nostalgia. So many parts of me are scattered around this site. I remember exactly how attached I was. How this was my introduction to creative outlets, socialization, coding — all the skills and emotions this place has invoked. I am reminded of the past. This is my machine back to feel the memories in real time. I always come back here. All roads lead back here.


We were kids once. We were kids together.
Now I'm 20.



 

You'll be okay
you'll be okay, maybe not today , maybe not tomorrow
but things do get better. It takes a lot of time and effort
to find the position you want to be at. 
No, it wont happen in a flash and no it will not
happen if you wait for it to happen.
Things will come through when you are willing
to make things happen,
Life is too short for you to be waiting on someone
or something that will not come.
You'll be okay,
i promise.
 

my biggest fear is unintentionally breaking someone else’s heart trying to find where mine belongs.

"It's okay. You'll be alright."
"..."
"A number doesn't define you. A test score doesn't define you. You're greater than that."
"Tell that to the people who decided that cramming 70+ questions on a sheet of paper and saying I should know and answer everything in 10 minutes is a good plan to judge if I'm a good and knowledgeable person. Tell that to the people who pay thousands upon thousands to get into college. Tell that to the people who stay up for hours and hours trying to pass an exam they'll forget about the next week. Tell that to the people who are pure geniuses and have the privilege to go anywhere and do anything. Tell that to the business bosses who won't even glance my way unless I have a bachelors degree. Tell those people that a number doesn't define me. They won't listen. They'll look at my skin and look at my gender and look at the number that has graded me for 12+ years and say ' I'm sorry. You aren't qualified. ' That simply isn't how the world works and I simply don't fit in."

It's been a long time since.

( hollow )

I got that sunshine in my pocket

Got that good song in my feet

I feel that hot spot in my body when it drops

I can't take my eyes off it, moving so phenomenally

You gon' like the way we rock it, so don't stop