prettyletdown

in-love. <3

 hey there. my name is tosha. i blow out the candles in March, & i'm 14 years young. i'm bisexual, & i like to have fun. i could sit here & tell you about my life, but none of that matters. you wanna know about my life? it all starts with a boy named Jamie. i used to be a big drinker, & i used to be addicted to hardcore drugs. i now have a liver problem, because of my bad mistakes. if they don't cure it, i'm going to die. Jamie has been there. he's always listened to me, & he promises me he'll be there till the end. he's such an amazing person, and to tell you the absoulte complete truth; i'm in love with him. i lost him once, & i don't ever want to go through that again. i truly don't know what i would do without him. he's gotten me through so much. he makes me smile, all the time, & he takes my breath away. when i'm talking to him, it feels like gravity is no longer holding me to the Earth. the best part? we're so close, & we live 3 hours away from each other, but yet we're stronger than ever.
i love you, Jamie.
forever & always. <3
 

-we talked just like we used to, just a decent conversation for the first time in awhile, and for that split second it was like we forgave each other for everything.
-i'm grown pretty content with this life i lead, where i drink to much and don't care about much of anything.
 -i just have the horrible feeling that one day, you're going to wake up and realize i'm not as great as you once thought i was.
 

i'm done caring. i'm just letting go.