psiloveyou43

You say you're fine, i know you better than that.
-said no one to me, ever.

okay, time for a super-vent. im laying it all out on the table.

i have a boyfriend. let's call him Drake. we've only been dating since October 26th. we started off as friends, and then i realized i liked him, he liked me, and so we started going out. but there's this other guy. we'll call him Shawn. me and Shawn had a little thing at the beginning of the school year. we never went out, but lately ive been realizing that i miss him. i feel like i just wanna be friends with Drake. Shawn and i talked a lot today, and he still likes me. i told him i still like him, and i think i do. but i just don't know how to tell Drake i want to be friends instead of actually having a relationship. any advice?

this is my life.

i hang out with this guy, and i really think im starting to like him.
i realize that i FINALLY think i've moved on from this other guy i've liked since ever.
the next day, he (the guy i liked forever) messages me on facebook.
"hey i miss you let's hang out soon blah blah blah"

....you're just a few years late, buddy.

finding true love is like watching the sunrise; rare. and most are too preoccupied to follow through with it. but when you do, nothing compares.
my quote.

i never realized how cliche my life would become when i got to high school.

so i was gonna write some really long quote and make it all pretty and put a lot of effort into it. but then i realized, i only have one thing to say. life suuuucks.
k bye.

kingsley replied to me on twitter♥

so as of today, it's been one year since i completely ruined my life by asking out this guy. i loved him. i still do. i should have known it was a stupid idea. it may be my biggest regret. but so what? i need to get over it, and stop feeling sorry for myself, right? but i don't even know what to do anymore.

it started out as a feeling
which then grew into a hope
which then turned into a quiet thought
which then turned into a quiet word
and then that word grew louder and louder
till it was a battle cry
i'll come back when you call me
no need to say goodbye.
~regina spektor.

& finally, things are okay.
i like when this happens. it reminds me that soon, everything will unfortunately go back to normal. but for now, im happy(: