Racing with my mind,
running too fast,
cant seem to catch up,
no sign of slowing down,
i can't keep doing this,
in constant battle with myself.
Why is this so hard?
Losing control,
i need a escape; a way out,
oh God please stop this nightmare,
i want to be happy; i need to be happy.
Why is this so hard?
Walls are up; built to last; to stand strong,
my insecurities taking over,
i'm not good enough; its never enough,
i plaster a smile on my face,
when inside i'm dying,
becoming weak; lost; hopeless.
why is this so hard?
Looking for a sign; a way out,
oh god
i need this,
becoming something i feared,
i
never wanted it to be this way,
Why is this so hard?
I'm reaching out; begging,
tell me i am worth it; tell me you need me; tell me everything will
be okay; tell me; promise me.
my mind is still racing,
fighting till the finish line,
the hardest part is to find the strength to keep going,
a steady pace; don't look back,
it only gets harder,
hold your head high; your beautiful,
you'll get out alive.
By: Myself