quotaholic

How can someone say they love you more than life, but ask you to breakup with them? How can someone claim to want to spend every second of their life wih you, but they don't want to live? How can someone say that you're the best thing in their life, but you don't make them happy? How can someone declare that you don't love them, just because you're trying to save them from themself?

And I killed myself somewhere in the middle of trying to save you.

_{What are we scared of?}

Why should you be the one who gets to see him

smile...                                           
      laugh...                      

            cry...     

He'll never see how much you love him, he'll never know.
Because that wonder boy you love, is oblivious to the one.
The one who would give up everything for him,
The one who reads everything he says.
The one who really listens, really cares.
The one who will never be noticed.
The invisible one.

That secret you can't share with anyone. That lie you always cover up with. What do you when it all comes to the surface? What is there left to do when they see it? What is there left when all you've ever had is gone?

I've done a lot of stupid things in my life. But I never thought I would regret you. So what happened?

I'm at that breaking point again.
You know the one, where you just sit there crying your heart out like an idiot
Because you just can't take it.
I'm there again, but the only reason I'm not doing anything about it
Is because I promised you.









I don't know how long I can keep this promise.

I just need him here right now.