rachelraw

I'd rather cling to you
desperately 
and apologize for every year
we did not know each other

Counting the ways to where you are.

Yes, I cut myself every night.
Yes I am unhappy.
But the thing is, I have not cried in months.
I just go through the motions in everyday life, and now I'm going through the motions of my depression.
Do you realize how awful that makes me feel?
Pretty damn awful.

And even though I swear I am over you
there are still some nights
where I lie awake
shaking
and clutching your shirt
thinking you'll call
but you won't
and that is that harsh reality
of a broken heart
 

And I wonder if you miss me 
like I miss you
do you cry as often as I
do you miss my kisses
and corny jokes
and burnt scrambled eggs
like I miss you twirling your hair when you're nervous
and mismatched socks
and loud laugh

He loves her
and he loves her voice
and the way she ties the top
of drugstore bags in a bow
and he loves her smile
and how she looks when she brushes her hair
and the look on her face when she realizes she is right
but most of all he loves 
the way she falls in love with books
the far-off look in her eyes when she loves a character
he wants her to look at him
like that

Where are you
and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep
I cannot dream tonight

I am so torn. I am torn between two guys that like me. I'm basically deciding between one guy who is so physically attractive that I just want to make out with him all the time, and a guy that is cute, not the hottest, but he is so well rounded, so smart, funny, nice, we have the some personality. The hot kid really likes me but our conversations are boring and stupid. The sweet kid likes me and our conversations are amazing. I don't know what to do, because I feel that the hot kid and I have so much chemistry. We love seeing each other, but I don't know him that well, and I don't trust him. The cute kid, I trust. And my parents love him. The hot kid, they don't really know him at all. I've gotten myself in too deep. Someone please help me, please. Message me here or on tumblr, I don't care just help me.

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Torn between two, 
Who would you choose? The one that you love or the one that loves you?
Torn between two, 
Who would he choose? The one with the love, or the one with the boobs?