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Most days I am content with being alone but sometimes when I watch a movie or read a book that has a love story in it, or when I see lovers holding hands or kissing, I realize that even though I am content with being alone, I dont want to be lonely.  I think what I'm trying to say is that it would be nice to experience this thing called "love". 

Some how I guess

I thought if I loved

you enough and if I

was good enough to

you that you would

love me back and I

could finally get what

I want at least once

but I couldn't even do

that and after all my

efforts you still don't

want or can't seem to

love me like I love you. 

I shaved my legs for you.
It might not seem like much,
but believe me...
it's a lot

Its hard to just forget someone
who gave you so much,
to remember.

The brain is the most outstanding organ.  
It works for 24 hours, 365 days, right from your birth.
 Until you fall in love.

<sup>some people are so poor

all they have is money</sup>

When I was younger I'd put my arms in my shirt and told people I lost my arms. I would restart the video game whenever I knew I was going to lose. I would sleep with all the stuffed animals so none of them would get offended. I had that one pen with 6 colors, and tried to push all the buttons at once. I poured my soda into the cap and acted like I was taking shots. I would wait behind a door to scare someone, but left because they took too long or I had to pee. I would fake being asleep, so my dad would carry me to bed. I used to think that the moon followed my car. I would watch those two drops of rain roll down the window and pretend it was a race. I used to swallow fruit seeds and get scared to death that a tree was going to grow in my tummy. Remember when we were kids and couldn't wait to grow up?

What were we thinking?

"I don't know. If being in love only made people more lonely, why would everyone want it so much?"

"Because of the illusion. You fall in love, it's intoxicating and for a little while you feel like you've actually become one with the other person.  Merged souls, and so on.  You think you'll never be lonely again.  Only it doesn't last and soon you realize you can only get so close, and you end up brutally disappointed, more alone than ever, because the illusion- the hope you'd held on to all those years- has been shattered.