randomxxcardss42xo

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I'm full of fictions and
f.u.c.k.i.n.g addictions.

Quotes by randomxxcardss42xo

"It's 11:11," he said, "make a wish."
I closed my eyes, made my wish, and opened them again with a sigh.
"Do you really believe in 11:11 wishes?"
he asked me, for that is so unlike me. "Yes," I answered,
"I had one come true once."
"So did I," he confessed. "What was it?" I asked, mine was so embarrassing.
"She's right in front of me."
You made me cry, you told me lies,
but I can't stand to say goodbye.
M a m a ,   I ' m   c o m i n '   h  o m e .  
Most of my decisions are made out of irony and/ or self
amusement. If nothing else, this makes for good stories. 
I WAS ALWAYS AN UNUSUAL GIRL, MY MOTHER TOLD ME I HAD A CHAMELEON SOUL. NO MORAL COMPASS POINTING ME DUE NORTH, NO FIXED PERSONALITY. JUST AN INNER INDECISIVINESS THAT WAS AS WIDE AND AS WAVERING AS THE OCEAN. AND IF I SAID I DIDN’T PLAN FOR IT TO TURN OUT THIS WAY I’D BE LYING- BECAUSE I WAS BORN TO BE THE OTHER WOMAN. I BELONGED TO NO ONE- WHO BELONGED TO EVERYONE, WHO HAD NOTHING- WHO WANTED EVERYTHING WITH A FIRE FOR EVERY EXPERIENCE AND AN OBSESSION FOR FREEDOM THAT TERRIFIED ME TO THE POINT THAT I COULDN’T EVEN TALK ABOUT- AND PUSHED ME TO A NOMADIC POINT OF MADNESS THAT BOTH DAZZLED AND DIZZIED ME. EVERY NIGHT I USED TO PRAY THAT I’D FIND MY PEOPLE- AND FINALLY I DID- ON THE OPEN ROAD. WE HAD NOTHING TO LOSE, NOTHING TO GAIN, NOTHING WE DESIRED ANYMORE- EXCEPT TO MAKE OUR LIVES INTO A WORK OF ART. 
I'm happy, he's happy,
and society will always pass judgment. 
I'm not bitter, I'm just over it.
As in, I don't worry if your're going to text me back or not.
And if you walk by without saying hi, my stomach won't
sink. And like, if you don't talk to me after school I'm not
going to throw a temper tantrum over it. But just the same,
I'm not going to text you first thing every Saturday and
Sunday morning. I'm not going to pick you up from work
and then stay at your house until two in the morning. 
We aren't going to hang out like, five days a week anymore.
And I'm okay with it. And as far as I know, you are too.
Because you never were that good at communicating. 
I've been on my own with this. And for once I'm not going
to worry about what everyone else wants. This, this is
what I want. 
I go to church for comfort. Because like, no matter what's changed in my life, or how hectic and chaotic everything seems, mass is still the same. Same responses, same standing, sitting, kneeling routine. Everyone gathering for a common purpose; I hate the purpose. I am not a practicing Catholic. I. Do. Not. "Believe." I observe, and go through the motions for one constant variable in my ever changing, ever illogical, ever fictional life. 
Anyone can feel the ache, you think it's more than you can take.
But you're stronger, stronger than you know.
Don't you give up now, the sun will soon be shining.
You gotta face the clouds to find a silver lining.
Let love into your life,
y   o   u   '   l     l       n     e   v   e   r         g   o         w   r     o   n   g   .