rbethanym

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Joined: January 20, 2013
Last Seen: 6 years
user id: 347181
I had this account (along with bethanyrachel) when I was younger. I used this as a journal for my journey through self-harm and depression. I am here now, a freshman in college, to tell you that there is a person who loves you and who cares for you. Hurting yourself, or killing yourself, is not the answer you are looking for. I promise. 

Reach out to me. I don't get on often, but please. I want you to know someone is here.

A little about me, because who is going to trust someone they don't know anything about?

My name is Rachel. I am almost 19, a freshman at Liberty University in Virginia. I am an interdisciplinary studies major, which is a fancy way of saying I can create a custom major that is perfect for my career path of choice. I am studying American Sign Language, developmental psychology, and family and childhood development. 

My heart is taken, by a Navy Sailor.

I really, really, really, love Jesus.

Quotes by rbethanym

im sick of being told what i need to believe in on wittychat.

this is getting ridiculous.

yall have no right to judge me based on a few quotes.

im seriously so sick of wittychat,

and theres only one reason im on there anymore,

and even he isnt too faithful.
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hate
random person in chat i have never met before:

hey a****** why do you believe in satan? You're going to go to hell when you die. Seriously get a life go to church and PRAY . Whats satan gonna do for you? Kiss your a** ! seriously grow up and stop believing in shiz like that kthanks by

the people like this are the reason i believe im worthless.
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suicide
you dont deserve to live
go die
no one likes you
youre such a who.re
you act like such a b.itch
stop being so annoying
no one wants to talk to you
you wouldnt be missed
you could just kill yourself and the world would be happy

thanks, person in chat
because i dont think about this enough
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depression
i need to learn to stay off your  profile. i get too jealous.
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iloveyou
i count down the hours until i can talk to you.
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iloveyou
yesterday was my two month cut date.
yesterday, two months ago, i made my first cut.
i only said one cut.
then one turned into five.
and five turned into thirty.
and thrity turned into an addiction.

i am so very triggered today.
 
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selfharm
things would be so much easier if i could fall in love with boys who lived in my town

and not with boys who live miles and miles away.
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butseriously
and i suddenly became aware of every cut i had ever made
and very scar i still had.

it was like they were burning through my pants.

and i felt like everyone could see them.
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selfharm

30 Day Self-harm challenge

1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
2. What part of your body is most affected by it? 

3. What is your motivation to recover? 

4. Do you consider yourself “addicted”? why or why not? 

5. What part of self harm do you dislike the most? 

6. What about it do you enjoy?

7. list 10 activities that help you calm down.

8. What the most supportive thing anyone has said to you about self harm?
9. Have you ever taken pictures of your wounds? Discuss.

10. How do you feel about your scars?

11. Strangest place (school, park, etc) you’ve ever injured yourself?

12. Where do you keep your ‘tools’? (Your room, in a box, disposed of them?)
13. What is the biggest realization about self harm you’ve had?

14. Is there anyone you consider to be an inspiration in your recovery?
15. Do you visit any websites about self harm? If so, what are they?

16. What advice would you give to someone about self harm?

17. Do you know anyone else who injures themselves? 

18. Write a letter to the future (recovered) you.
19. List 3 reasons that recovery is worth it.

20. What is the most vivid memory you have of self harm.

21. Have you tried to stop in the past? What are you doing differently this time?
22. Where do you feel the most calm?
23. What is your favorite inspirational quote?

24. What are some of your main triggers? Why? 

25. Do you know any statistics about self harm?

26. What is something that makes you the most happy?

27. Discuss any and all progress you have made.

28. What short-term goals do you have?

29. Do you follow any self-harm blogs?

30. Post your favorite picture of yourself and write a positive message to look back on.

on my second tumblr, yes. quite a few of yall self harm too, i think that counts, yeah?
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selfharmchallenge

30 Day Self-harm challenge

1. How long have you been self harming? Discuss why you started.
2. What part of your body is most affected by it? 

3. What is your motivation to recover? 

4. Do you consider yourself “addicted”? why or why not? 

5. What part of self harm do you dislike the most? 

6. What about it do you enjoy?

7. list 10 activities that help you calm down.

8. What the most supportive thing anyone has said to you about self harm?
9. Have you ever taken pictures of your wounds? Discuss.

10. How do you feel about your scars?

11. Strangest place (school, park, etc) you’ve ever injured yourself?

12. Where do you keep your ‘tools’? (Your room, in a box, disposed of them?)
13. What is the biggest realization about self harm you’ve had?

14. Is there anyone you consider to be an inspiration in your recovery?
15. Do you visit any websites about self harm? If so, what are they?

16. What advice would you give to someone about self harm?

17. Do you know anyone else who injures themselves? 

18. Write a letter to the future (recovered) you.
19. List 3 reasons that recovery is worth it.

20. What is the most vivid memory you have of self harm.

21. Have you tried to stop in the past? What are you doing differently this time?
22. Where do you feel the most calm?
23. What is your favorite inspirational quote?

24. What are some of your main triggers? Why? 

25. Do you know any statistics about self harm?

26. What is something that makes you the most happy?

27. Discuss any and all progress you have made.

28. What short-term goals do you have?

29. Do you follow any self-harm blogs?

30. Post your favorite picture of yourself and write a positive message to look back on.

survive.
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