rbethanym

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Joined: January 20, 2013
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I had this account (along with bethanyrachel) when I was younger. I used this as a journal for my journey through self-harm and depression. I am here now, a freshman in college, to tell you that there is a person who loves you and who cares for you. Hurting yourself, or killing yourself, is not the answer you are looking for. I promise. 

Reach out to me. I don't get on often, but please. I want you to know someone is here.

A little about me, because who is going to trust someone they don't know anything about?

My name is Rachel. I am almost 19, a freshman at Liberty University in Virginia. I am an interdisciplinary studies major, which is a fancy way of saying I can create a custom major that is perfect for my career path of choice. I am studying American Sign Language, developmental psychology, and family and childhood development. 

My heart is taken, by a Navy Sailor.

I really, really, really, love Jesus.

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Nohandsx 9 years ago
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Heyyy, I was just going through profiles & I came across yours! I love it first of all! You're extremely beautiful! I just wanted to leave a comment! (: x
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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thank you darling (:
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Nohandsx 9 years ago
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Anytime. (: x
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That_Irish_Kid 9 years ago
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come on skype, sorry, my mum wanted to see my computer
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[deleted] 9 years ago
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you're gorgeous(;
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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aw thank you! sorry for the late response, i never received a notification. (:
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xojesusfreedmexo 9 years ago
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Chin up gorgeous, your tierra is falling<3
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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thank you sweetie ♥
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letmeholdyourhand 9 years ago
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Smile, you're beautiful.

Whatever you're going through, whatever struggles you're facing, face them with PRIDE, with CONFIDENCE. Because someday, you are going to look back to these days and proudly say "I survived that." And you will. You definitely will. You know you will, I know you will and no matter what happens, YOU WILL SURVIVE. You know why? Because YOU ARE STRONG. Don't believe me? Well, who's the one that's lived up till now? Who's the one that smiles, despite their pain? Who's the one that has the ability to feel emotions and hasn't shut them out even after going through so much? Who's the one that's going to extreme measures just to live? Who's the one that helps others, despite the fact that you desperately need help yourself? Who's the one that got out of bed this morning? Who's the one that is sitting or lying down, reading this right now instead of dying? That's right, it's none other than YOU. You, my darling, are a strong person. You will get through this, and it will someday be just a nostalgic memory. Don't you dare let yourself think otherwise, because if you do, you're lying to yourself. Iloveyou <3

You are a piece of treasure. A priceless, valuable piece of treasure. You are of VALUE. Value yourself, because something valuable should be nothing but valued. Love yourself, because something as beautiful as you should be cared for and forgiven every day, every night.

Smile, you're beautiful <3 <3 <3 xoxoxoxoxo
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That_Irish_Kid 9 years ago
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hey, Rachel. I've come to realise something over the past week.
How flipping gorgeous you are.
Not just on the inside, but on the outside too. You're so beautiful, and those people who try to tell you otherwise are so stupid. I don't want you to go, I don't want you to die. I don't want the world to lose another amazing person because someone else had to validate themselves by putting down a pretty, smart and kind girl who just looked like an easy target.
Oh gosh, I'm crying now. Rachel, don't do anything stupid, I'd miss you too much.
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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awwwwwwww (:
thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
youre crying??? im crying!!!!!!!!!!!
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That_Irish_Kid 9 years ago
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I balled my eyes out for three hours :/
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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have you like read the comments on my profile? i cant read any without crying!
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That_Irish_Kid 9 years ago
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hey, come back on witty chat
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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i was sleeping.
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LoveNeverEverEverDies 9 years ago
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sorry i spelt stuff wrong lol
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LoveNeverEverEverDies 9 years ago
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oh my gosh. why would people ever say thoses this!? i clicked on the quote and i scroll down and im like... WHAT? people can be mean and sometimes it directed towards us but we cant take it serously.i really think your beautiful and your dimples (like really adorable)
stay strong
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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aw thank you darling (: i dont understand why people have to put others down to build themselves up. but it happened and it will be taken care of. thank you!! i love my dimples!!!
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LoveNeverEverEverDies 9 years ago
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Haha, your welcome:)
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Ineedmakyinme 9 years ago
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Heey! So, like I always do, I was scrolling through witty top quotes and I seen your quote about someone user on witty making harsh comments towards you. I think that you are beautiful. You don't deserve to die because you are here for a reason. I know it seems like at times we don't, I've been there and Im still looking for mine, but we all have and get one eventually. I know you probably here sob stories and sh/t like Im saying to you now, but I am here to listen to you, not because I want to sound like I am a good person, I do it because I have been there, I care and I want to help those who might need it or need to know that at least someone cares. Also, I want to know the a$$hole who had the balls to say those things to you because I need to talk to them.
You don't deserve it whatsoever.
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I love the song you have posted, I keep replying it ;3
Also I need a new witty friend because everyone else on here are a$$holes, could that person be you? :)
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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thank you sweetie (: it means so much to me that yall will take the time out to comment on my quote about me just ranting. i quite like that song too, my song changes daily though. of course ill be your witty friend (: you can catch me in chat almost any time, im a nice person ♥♥♥
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wittygirl1 9 years ago
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Hiya, I just wanted to say your eyes are really pretty :P
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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aw, thank you ♥
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SalemSoto 9 years ago
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Hi you are so beautiful . o;
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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aw, thank you darling (:
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teddybearhugz 9 years ago
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omgggg, you're so prettaayyyyy, your eyeeesssss, your hairrrr o.o me wants!! xD aww, you're beautiful! everyone's beautiful! regardless of our flaws :3 so you think that you're the worst person alive right? but honey, ever struck you that other people think that way too? and then if everyone was right, that means that everyone is the worst person alive... which kinda cancels out the fact that you're the worst cuz so is everyone else... Dont worry, you're going to be okay, you will be! :D fight fight!! you're strong enough to get through this, and if you ever think that you're not, I'm always here to help you carry your load and share my strength with you ^.^

Don’t tie the rope,
There’s still hope

Don’t pull the trigger,
There’s always something bigger

Don’t take those pills,
Even though right now life kills

Don’t grab that knife,
There’s always going to be a second chance in life

Don’t decide to jump,
Even when you feel like a rubbish dump

Don’t drink the bleach,
Life will get better the further you reach

Don’t say adieu,
Someone always loves you.

Just think this through,
I promise you have value

If you end it now, you will never know,
At the end of all the storms, there could've been a rainbow

You need to pick yourself up,
And never give up.

Prove them all wrong,
Because you know you’re strong

Hold on tight,
And don’t let go.
Keep up the fight,
And tell yourself

“no”

- I hope this poem I wrote helps!
From the one and only, a little strange, Miena :P <3 <3 <3 xo
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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thank you sweetie ♥
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heartofgold 9 years ago
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Reasons to stay alive.
1. People care. Just because they don’t show it, doesn’t mean they don’t care. Your family, your friends, who you think don’t care, they do.
2. Life is precious, some people aren’t even born, don’t waste it.
3. If you end your life, you’ll never get a chance to let go of the worries and do something to make it better.
4. Every obstacle makes you stronger.
5. If you commit suicide, then you won’t be able to help others that want to. You could help people in the same position as you, you could save someone’s life.
6. You were made for a purpose, stay alive to fufill that purpose.
7. The small things are beautiful, learn to respect and see them, they’ll amaze you, and sometimes inspire you.
8. All the singers and bands that made music about giving up- they were just like you, and they became famous and who they are now. That could be you one day.
9. You’ll never know what happens in the future.
10. Who knows, maybe your crush or ex will ask you out the day after you’ve committed suicide.
11. You may be insecure, but you’ll eventually realise, in time, just how beautiful you are.
12. I love you. Gay, bi, straight, black, white, I don’t care. I love you.
13. If you’re getting bullied, then they’re just jealous of how you look and who you are, before they took it away. They enjoy seeing you in so much pain, maybe because they were like that once and they think other’s deserve to feel that pain, or they are jealous. They just want a reaction, just ignore them, or if it is physical, or highly discrimintave then tell a teacher, or someone you trust.
14. You could learn so much from life, but you’ll learn nothing if you give up now.
15. Think about all the memories you had, you’ll never get any good memories again if you give up now.
16. Committing suicide is giving every single thing up, small and big. Your family, your friends, your memories, (maybe) your boyfriend/girlfriend, new experiences, laughs, smiles, and so much more.
17. There is so much more to life than it seems, you just need to look, and you’ll find the best things ever in life.
There are plenty more, but these are a few for now. Please, don’t kill yourself tonight.
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rbethanym 9 years ago
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i.. dont know what to say. i love you darling <3 thank you, so much.
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heartofgold 9 years ago
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I love you too, and anytime. If you need help, advice or someone to talk to you can always come to me, I promise I won't judge<3
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