So I've been talking to this boy
and I can be myself around him. He makes me feel wanted in every
way. I love his family and his story. Like me he has had it rough.
I fell for him, got my hopes up, cared for him, worried over him
and did everything at the drop of a hat for him. Two days ago he
dropped out of college, because he said it was for him. We talked
today on the phone and comes to find out he doesnt want to drag me
into anything. Things, like him having no money, not knowing where
his future will be or what he is doing. This I respected. Just
hurts you know? Even though he says he still wants to talk in all
just chill. He doesnt not want to talk to me his says, he just
needs to figure stuff out. He also has its just wrong timing and
that if we hangout like we use his mind is on me and not what he
has too.He's a sweet guy but for some reason I feel hurt. I
feel sad, dissapointed, alone, left and confused. I feel selfish
for feeling this way. Just sucks feeling like I care way
more.