samlovepink

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Joined: June 21, 2011
Last Seen: 7 years
user id: 185761

Hello I'm samantha.
I'm using this account just to express my feelings about my life.
feel free to talk to me, I'm a good lisener.
Well i dont know what to say just I want everyone to live the life I can never have.

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To Be hurt,
To Feel Lost.
To Be Left Out In The Dark.
To Be Kicked,
When your down.
To Feel Like You've Been Pushed Around.
To Be On the Edge Of Breaking Down.
And No ones There To Save you.
No You Don't Know What It's like.
Welcome To My Life.

I just got out of the hospital..
Heart fauilar.
They say from my lack of eating,
I say of lack of love.
A week after i got relesed..
I broke my arm.
My dad said it was a "accident"
But really the bill was so much from thhe heart poblems and he got mad.
The doctor asked what happened,
I said "I was m faul,I missed behaved"
I wish I was good but i cant
I cause to much trouble for my family.
hey dont even want me here..
So why am i still here. 
I think its time fr me to say godbye to them.. 

Why am I anorexic..
So I can finally have control over something in my world.
I rember the first time you did it.
You said it wouldn't hurt,
It would make me better,
Make me a good person.
I rember how you kept me so Afraid.
I prayed you'd stop,I screamed..
No one heard me.. No one ever has.
Bruises fade but the pain I'll always rember.
When you touch me,
I pray it will be over.
It seems like forever.
I know it will get better,
The day I turn 18 I'll finally be free,
No more pain.
I love you dad,
Just please stop hurting me
.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

 


Well Wecome to my life.
 


 
Then I see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces

So you can make me whole<333



 

I get sexually assaulted by my dad at least once a week.
It's been happening for two years now.
I've never told any my mom,friends, or sister.
He gets meaner every time.
I'm afraid to tell anyone.. because if he found out,,
He'd kill me.
I don't want people's sympathy.
Just listen.
I wish everyday for a dad who cares about me.
For everyone that does,
Don't take that for granted.
Tell him you love him EVERYDAY!
Your so lucky to have that.
But instead I have a dad that when he does this,
He tells me how disappointed he is with me,
How if I was like my sister This wouldn't happen.
I wish i was like my sister.. she is perfect.
Tonight after he did it..
I just 4 deep cuts,
for evry time he said he hates me.
I'm sorry dad,
I love you.

 

Dear Mom and Dad,
I'm sorry I'm not you perfect daughter.
You say I'm "insane",
Ever think dad it could be you?
Hitting me in secret,
Leaving bruises in places no one can see.
Touching me in places you Shouldn't!
Mom,
Calling me,
Fat,stupid,lazy,ugly,usless.
Mom I'm 5"11 and I dropped down to 114 pounds for you.
But I'm still fat to you.
You guys think I'm a freak because I cut.
You don't understand it's because of you.
I tired to be perfect.
But I'm done! I don't care what you think anymore.
I'm running away and never coming back!
I love you even though you hated me.


Hello,
IM Samantha im anorexic/bulimic and i cut. Im really hoping I can find someone who i can talk to.. either has the same problems or just would care enough to help me out of this. If your interested at all please emil me at thegirlwhowasonfire@rocketmail.com Please anyone I need someone to talk to.