scrappy

Status: holding on..
Joined: February 11, 2010
Last Seen: 3 weeks
user id: 101057
Alyssa. 05/11/2013 <3
If I've every truly cared about you,
I'll think about you for the rest of my life.

Quotes by scrappy






sick of crying,
tired of trying.

yeah i'm smiling,
but inside I'm dying. ♥

 






Hey you,
little did you know
 that I was the one that wanted to vent
~Sincerely,
Someone with no one to talk to.
 




Hello There;

I've missed you.



 

i hate my birthday. its always the day i feel like the biggest burden.
why is it so hard for me to cut anymore ?
everytime i try, i cant ever bring myself to do it.
i hold the blade against my skin but it doesnt move.
i used to get such a rush out of it.
it used to take the pain away.
i dont know what changed or why.
but i cant, and i wish i could.
Oh the wonders my mind seeks
I don’t want to be pitied. I don’t want people trying to “fix” me or trying to “help” me. I want to be left alone. I want to be understood. And I want to be able to do what I want. Am I strong enough to overcome self infliction? Am I strong enough to keep the monsters inside me at bay? No. No, probably not. But I’ll be damned if I let them stay. So I’ll give up this time, like I always do.. and let them pass through. Then, I’ll be okay for a little while. Then, I’ll finally be fine. Sooner or later, they’ll come back though. They always do..
It happened so long ago.
Why do I still care ?
Why does it still hurt ?
I just want it to stop.
How many times do I have to think about suicide before I actually do it ?