seanmcclatchy3

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Joined: April 25, 2011
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i havent been on in a while, but i just turned 15 the other day and im so much better than what i was and im changed a lot, and it was for the better if i may add. so, im not usually on.. if you need help, i freaking love helpig people, so ill leave my cell phone number and who ever needs a person to talk to them, im here and ill hellp as much as i possibly can. my number is 610-888-3546, i always have my phone, so text me when ever and just introduce yourself to me and tell me that you got my number from witty.

Quotes by seanmcclatchy3

someone help me; i wanna cut SO BAD, but i know i shouldn't .. could someone kindly help me?
now that you broke up with me , my cutting has been worse than ever .. just yesterday , i put 60 cuts into my wrist because i missed you .. i had a dream that you came to my house & ran through the door into my arms , told me that you love me & asked me out again .. i felt SO happy .. but then i woke up & cried for an hour because i knew that i cant have you anymore ..

now that you're no longer my girlfriend, my self esteem is REALLY low & i wanna commit suicide because i hate myself .. but when we were together , it was so much higher; i loved it when you said i was adorable & cute .. but now your gone & i dont have anyone to call me cute anymore .. i just have people to make fun of me & call me emo because i cut .. 

today, i was in the shower & i was thinking 'what the hell, man? i'm taking all these damn bracelets off' so, i did .. then i felt so wierd & insecire , almost like someone was watching me & any second they were gonna laaugh at what my wrists looked like .. so, i quickly put all them back on, but i put all them on my left wrist because it has all my cuts on it & i just coudnt look at them anymore .. because i was so ashamed of what i've done .. but then my circulation started to get cut off , so i took some of them off & now i have almost all of my bracelets on one wrist because i cant stand my cuts ,, i cry because i remembeer why i made them & i wish that i could just have her back .. sometimes i cry for hours because i miss you ..

& to make my life worse, my bestfriend's boy friend made her promise that she wouldnt ever be alone with me again .. so, i now have no one to go to when i have thoughts of suicide or when i just need someone's shoulder to cry on .. last time i was with her, she gave me the longest hug because i started crying & she told me everything will be alright .. ya somethin', that made my day .. but i wont ever have that happen to me again , because he wont let her hug me .. i mean , i would be a little fine with having someone else with us, but i cant even see her for a month because he got grounded & he said i cant be with her until he gets ungrounded .. well, what if i wanna start drinking & she doeesnt want me too ? i cant go see her because he wont let me & then i'll end up hurting my bestfriend .. UGH, life sucks .. 


is it wierd that i stay inside all day because i'm too scared to go outside because i'm scared of what people will say & think about me ? i've sat inside for the last 4 days & today i finally went outside to walk to my friend dom's house , & when i walked there , i felt REALLY insecure & scared .. like, i was tearing up while i was walking because i just knew there was someone making fun of me while i was walking .. 
i miss her .. </3 . what happened to wanting to spend the rest of your life with me & what happened to getting married ? what happened to everything being alright ? what happened to not loosing me again ? what did i do for you to hate me & push me out of your life? i tried to help yous with your cutting & eating disorder, but all i did i did was make it worse .. </3 fml .. i'm nothing without h e r .. why can't she come back to me & say 'i love you sean<3 !'? life sucks without you; nplease take me back & say you love me? i stilll love you & i wish i had you back .. i remember when i would hold you in my arms & tell you i loved you at random times & then i would occasionally kiss you; why cna't we go back to that ? .. </3

I MISS YOU HEATHER ! please take me back & tell me that you love me & we'll be together foreveer? please? i'll do ANYTHING for that to happen ! .. </3

now, i'm going crazy about our break up .. i'm cuuttting, drinking, wanting to do drugs to harm myself because i lost you .. i'm a mess without you .. please, lets go back to the old us? where we used to talk all the time, hang out all the time, tell eahcother how much we loved eachother, how we would tease eachother, how i would tickle you to see your beautiful smile, how i would hold you in my arms so tightly & never wanting to let go, kissing you, holding hands, having you comfort me through the times i needed you most, etcc. you we're the best person that eveer entered my life & you said you'd never leave me life; now, why did you go & break up with me? i thought i was the sweetest, most cute & caring guy that ever lived? you used to make my self esteem go up .. now, it's the worst it's ever been; i'm even thinking about suicide because of the fact that i lost you & that i hate myself .. please! please, let me fall back into your loving arms? that was the only place i felt safe from everything & the place wherte i felt most loved .. </3 

please, heather ! i'll do anything for you to love me again ! 

i just can't stop thinking about you; i have dreams about you & i wake up in the middle of the night, usually right when you are about to make me feel REALLY loved, i wake up & start to cry, sometimes even cut.. my life is a mess & it's headed straight for disaster; please, you made me actually wanna get up in the morning because i knew i had someone to wake up to & love .. pleas take me back? i love you & i miss you ! i'm lost without you $ i want you back SO BAD; please, tell me why there's ALWAYS a better boy? 

UGH, fml! i wanna die. 

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