sexy_lover

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hey!
I'm jordan! I'm 17 :)
i had a boyfriend who was killed in a car accident last year, before his daughter was born.
now i have a baby with no father and my parents kicked me out and i'm living with my best friend and her family who are wonderful.
dont ask about the username, i t was a joke with himm :)
my baby is so sweet and wonderful. her name is jessica ♥
lucky girl looks just like her dad :)
his parents have been so supportive through all f it, unlike mine
my boyfriend's name was Cameron and i was honestly in love with him ♥
ik im only 17 but he was so perfect and wonderful in every way ♥
i cannot even express in words how much i miss him adn wish he were here :'(
my baby is now 1 year  old and i love her, and i hope she grows up to be better than i am.
i love her more than anything in the world and would do anything to protect her.
as much as her arrival screwed up my life, i would never want her to not be here
no one can undertsand the love between a mother and her child until they have one of their own
please dont judge me for who i am i cant help it.
ive come to witty for support, and some new friends :)
I made a facebook for all witty friends, name's Jordan Ryan :)
im super friendly lol :D
 
jessie at 2 months 


 
 
my pretty girl's big blue eyes! silly baby's playing on momy's bed ♥
she has her daddy's eyes


dont judge me for who i am and what my life is. i  know im not anywhere near perfect, but i have my baby and my friends and thats what matters ♥
 

Quotes by sexy_lover

today, after school,
3 girls and 2 guys jumped me. I've never seen them before, I have no idea who they were, but they beat me up and when someone driving by stopped and honked the horn, they all ran...but the person in the car didn't even check to see if I was ok before they left. I could be dead right now and no one would even know.....

my baby would have no mother,
my brother and sister would have 1 less sibling,
my gerbil would starve to death,
I wouldn't make any more Witty quotes,
my seat in school would be empty,
my locker cleaned out,
and eventually my room,
and I would be
forgotten.


I am nothing

and somtimes I wonder what would happen if

my eyes went dull
my blood stopped pumping
my lungs quit going
i stopped breathing
my heart stopped beating


and i just...died

And on nights like this when I'm thinking of him,
I just sit there and hold our duaghter and cry
her tiny little body gives me so much strength, but it's just not enough
she just looks up at me with his big, blue eyes and I melt
she looks so small and helpless, and I wonder where would she be now, if I had given her up like my parents told me to?
or even better, how perfect would things be if her dadddy was still her with us?
i just think of these things and i cry and cry and cry,
bad thoughts go through my head, and I can't stop them
no one can help me, no one can console me
he would have been the only one...but he's gone
she's the only peice of him I have left♥

happiest i've been in a while :)
got my daughter,
got my family back,
back home
all is good <3

I'm officially moving back home with my family this weekend, and I'm bringing my daughter.  It will be the first time I'll be back home in over 2 years ♥
This is the best weekend of my life

If you knew my story,
you wouldn't be treating me like this,
I guarantee

So, last night my mom called me, and talked to me for the first time in over 8 months.  That alone was a huge deal to me.  But then, she said how sorry she was for everything she's done to me over the past 2 years, and she loved me and my baby....and then she said

She wants me to come back home ♥

this is so amazing...I started balling right there.
sorry, major vent

Jessica,
if it weren't for you, i would have killed myself a long time ago. thank you so much for everything
     mommy loves you, sweetie♥♥♥

I just want someone to understand my condition.

it's so hard to live this way, and no one can see it