shelbs66

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My father is half the cause of my insecurities,
the other half is because I choose to believe everything he says.

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And no matter how much you hurt me, I still love you.
I try and fight for you but you just let me down like always.
You're just not worth the fight anymore.
I still love you no matter what though, Dad. </3

You never managed to smile at me,
Or tell me I made you glad.
You never told me I was special,
Or make me smile when I was sad.
You never held my hand,
Or checked under my bed.
You never laughed with me.
Or when I was sick, felt my head.
You never drove me to school,
or made sure I was doing my best.
You never made me feel beautiful,
Above all the rest.
You never gave me that lecture about boys,
Or give me one of those great big daddy hugs.
You never told me there was nothing to fear,
Like the monsters and bed bugs.
You never read me stories
Or tucked me in at night.
You never put me on your shoulders
And made me feel alright.
You never taught me to stand tall,
Or let me dance on your shoes.
You never told me I did great when I really tried.
Or took me to see the animals at the different zoos.
You never will walk me down the isle,
On that very special day.
You never did or will protect me,
In every kind of way.
You never were proud of me,
Even when I did something good.
But I guess you did all of these things,
Because you never loved me all along.
You never acted like my father,
Although you were supposed to be.
I thank you every day,
For choosing not to be in my life.
I envy all those girls I see with their perfect father,
The only thing I know is I'll choose well when I decide to become a wife.
And even though you may have not treated me the best and have no desire to love me,
I hope one day you wake and you you'll see.
The pain you caused me is a tragedy that'll stay with me forever.
I'm sorry me as a daughter is what you never had,

You will always be my father, but you will never be my dad.

Hi, so this isn't pretty but here goes nothing...

When they call for the father/daughter dance at my wedding, I'm going to take my mom by the hand and dance with her, my father probably won't even be there. My father left me when I was 3. He didn't come back for 5 years. Now he only wants to see me when it's a good enough time for him and when nothing else better is going on. He's the reason for most of my insecurities. The only time he's talking to me he's bringing me down, never has anything nice to say about me. Sometimes he shows up and tries to take me when i'm home alone, sometimes he succeeds and I have to find away out. Sometimes he calls late at night when he's drunk to tell me how much he hates me, I don't tell mom because I don't want her to worry. She has enough to worry about, she doesn't need to worry about me. I'll be fine. I'm fine until I see all these girls talk or watch them with their fathers, it kills me inside. I want that. I want a guy who gives me lectures about boys, always tells me to do my best, yells at me when I have done wrong and encourages me, no matter what but mostly a man I look up to. I don't have that and I never will...

I'm not looking for you to feel sorry for me, heck I'm not even sure if you'll read this. I just want you to know, no matter how mad you get at your daddy, be appreciative that you have one, some people don't even have that...

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It's not pretty, but worth reading. <3


Her hair was up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was 'Daddy's Day' at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid, she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home. The little girl still went to school, eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees, a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in the back, for everyone too meet. Children were squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats. One by one the teacher called, a student from the class to introduce her daddy. As the minutes slowly passed, at last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, for a man who wasn't there. "Where's her daddy at?" she heard a boy call out. "She probably doesn't have one," another student dared to shout. The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom. And looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on. And with hands behind her back, slowly she began too speak. And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique. "My daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be here, since this is such a special day. And even though you cannot meet him, I want you to know he loves me very much. I know if he didn't live so far and was with me and mommy, he would've told me stories to make me go bed, teach me to ride a bike. We we would've shared fudge sundaes and ice cream cones. And he would've carried me on his shoulders so I would be high above everyone else and I'd be daddy's little girl and have that man I love so much." And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, her mother stood shedding a couple tears. Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years. For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for her, doing what was right. And then she said, staring straight into the crowd, "I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star. Even though he's not here today or hasn't called in years, I know he loves me." And there her mother was trying to fight the tears because all that her little girl said was a lie, her father lefted them when she was only 3. He had nothing to do with her and yet she stills believes in him, hoping one day he will come back even though the mother knows he never will. 

My grandfather died the morning after thanksgiving, he wanted all the family to be together one last time i guess. he'd been sick for 6 years. He held on for awhile, but his sickness and disease made him sicker and sicker as the months go by. This is a poem i wrote for him, i read it at the funeral that was held today. I miss him and love him with all my heart. <3


The world isn't the same,

since the day the angels came.

Heaven has received another angel. The night sky, another star.

His life has become a loving memory, I know he will never be too far.

Together we have all cried an ocean of tears,

as we feel so empty and hold many fears.

But Granddad would want us to know he's in a good place,

and that hes watching us all with a smile on his face.

I know I'm not perfect, I never will be,

but I hope he's up there, and he's proud of me.

He changed who I am today,

A debt I can never repay.

He has played a special part.

Memories, I will treasure and keep close to my heart.

Because of the disease he could not defeat,

his life is now, sadly, complete.

He had to let go, he was holding on for so long.

There's not a day I don't think of him and how he was so strong.

To each one of us, he has loved and cared.

We're all so thankfull for the good times we shared.

I love and miss him with all my heart,

but as long as I have our loving memories, we will never be far apart.

He really was one in a million, a cut above the rest.

All that knew him would agree, he simply was the best.

Although he is gone, we will always be together,

And his spirit will live on each one of us, forever.

As times passes, our tears will dry, our hearts will mend

but our love for him will never end.

R.I.P. Granddad, 11/26/2010. <3

so this isn't a pretty quote but i just wanted to say that last night, i told him how i felt, and even though i knew there wasn't a chance with him, and he just told me who he liked and it wasn't me, i still told him and i feel soo glad to get that off my chest, and he said its best for us to just be friends and for some reason i was completely fine with it, i just hope he knows that im still madly inlove with him, i hope things won't be akward at the halloween party tonight.. ]: <3

"My Crush"
Say your crushes name six times. 
Now close your eyes and make a wish about them.
Decide what's more important, love, or 10 million dollars. 
Now make one last wish, the love, or the money. 
Repost this in 60 seconds with the subject
"My Crush"
And you'll get an unexpected talk from your crush...
DON'T screw it up
in life ; the greater things are always unseen,
that`s why we close our eyes when we
kiss , cry or dreaam.. < 3
Give me a hint,
Just one little clue.
To let me know why
I have a crush on you
Don't make me feel silly
Or worse, even shy
And I'll listen to what you have to say
If you just tell me why
Is it the way you listen,
And talk to me,
Or the look on your face
When i do something silly?
Is it the cute habits you have unlike no one else
That make me wish I could have you all to myself? (: