simpleplanchika

I want a real boyfriend
NOT "hey babe, how are you? Good bye." sorta thing

keeping it inside of her
dark dark secret
everything unfolds
the truth, the pain, the words
shes hid it from everyone
no one knows
suffering from the memory
living with it forever
wishing she could say something
but she doesnt & wontt
she understand what he did
but doesnt want to believe it
its been a while
a long time
she never said anything
she keept it inside of her
surrounding it with tissue & tears
wasting nights crying about it
she doesnt know normal
she hurrts to know he did that
but she basically understands now
he's pysco
thats why he did it
but she wish she could uncover this to everyone she loves
but she cant
she's already hurts
sshes discusted
she wants it to be over
for everyone to know
but it wont happen
her secret is trapped inside her forever

so i see eveeryone hates me tonight
mabes its just a fad
and it'll pass
mabes ill go away and never look back
look at me and say something
kill the time we have and abuse it
tell me hurtful insane lies
you can hate me forever
go on and on and on
babbling away;discuising your discust
go along with the crowd for awhile
then show who you really are
show your true self
bring yourself to be bigger than that
dont stand in the dark shadows anymore
youre the one whos gonna get hurt one day
think your own thoughts
put your opinion to the test
forget the rest and lay it to the grave
tell me everything you feel
so it might hurt but its worth it
you'll discover who you truely are
and maybe; just maybe
you can find someone just like you

from her devious smile
to her hazardous eyes
you see her as a friend
never knowing her true words for you
you say you love her, but it doesnt mean anything
its a strong friendship
nothing that will develop into anything else
you two can flirt and flirt
and fiddle with each others hands
but it doesnt mean a damn thing
she knows youre friends
thats all you'll ever be
you dont know how much she likes you
youve been friends since diapers
you know everything about her
from our favorite food to her what she does in her free time
she knows the same damn thing but more
there you go again
flirting;she thinks you like her
set her straight before she gets hurt again
tell her face to face
while theres still time
for once she thinks she likes the right guy
because every other one she's liked
she was hurt horribly
and if you like her, tell her
do something
before it progresses
she'll keep you in her mind till the day we die.

please understand what i mean
when you come to me
face to face
my tear stained cheeks
match your blue glass eyes
so fragile and intimidated
like you say the wrong thing
and we'll both break down
you dont know why
these tears i cry are for you
mabes you never will
i wanna let you break free
break loose of your tight wingds
let you fly free
i wanna make you happy
because i know you arent
ive seen you mad
your eyes showed anger, and confusion
did they love you?
was that what you werre wondering?
then i put you in my arms
cuddled you so close
like i was yours
knowing i wasnt, but the feeling of you in my arms
made everything different
you then sensed a feeling of freedom
like i could help you with everything
i was your savior
friends is okay
i want you to always be there for me
i want you to hold me when im hurt and confused
like i did for you
can i take a raincheck?
but you'll be the one you wanna fight
you hate yourself
not knowing it, because the boy made me hurt
it was you all along
but its because you dont like me
we're friends and thats all we will ever be.

almost three years have passed
and not one day has gone by
without your name on my mind
it comes around at the oddest times
with moments that i never knew
i would think of you by
you were my best friend
someone i could trust.
everything i knew
down in one small person

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she was a pretty little girl
who always got her way
she had a bunch of friends
who always made her day
they helped her through lifes obstacles
they helped her through hardshops.
they put a smile on her face
they never once were disgraced
she had a bunch of love
more than needed
but she didnt feel she had enough
she made it up elsewhere
where she got hurt by a guy
he now denies her existence
but look close or youll miss it
that one tear
that one speck of crys
she was broken down by the lies
that were spread about her
this guy took something that belonged to her
but she'll have to regret it all
and turn to cry silently
like she always does
never heard, never seen
she had a family of lies
who always hurt her in every which way
but they didnt know they hurt her
until she was crying helplessly on that one day
she hurt herself
so others couldnt
this was her drug of choice
cutting
no one knew what it meant
no one knew why she did it
little did they know
it was her way of not killing herself.
but that was done and over with
before it started
she wanted it out of life
little did her parents know
she ended it with a knife
she was found dead in her closet
with blood soaked clothes
a rope around her neck
and a note saying "sorry"

here i am
trapped inside
someone thats not me
someone who wants out
she`s messing up too much
it doesnt help
that no one cares
all she wants is someone to be there
tell her everythings okay
& everything will be allright