skittelgal810

Status: Ew! School!
Joined: January 28, 2011
Last Seen: 8 years
Birthday: August 10
user id: 149580
Gender: F
Hey! I'm a crazy thirteen year old named Sydney. I live in the boring Old Line State. I'm going through a rough time isn't enough to explain what I'm going through, cause I've gone to hell and back. I belong to the Jew Crew ;)! i lovee my friends.  Xximalittlemonkeyxx   ilovestars,  and bazfifi are my girls!  I love 1D but Liam and Niall are my faves! I <3 dogs!! chocolate covered strawberries are my life. If you want to get to know me just comment and i'll write you back ASAP! i always love to make new friends on  here! so comment me for that too! Love you and and follow me! <3 maybe! You're beautiful! mwah! My wattpad is http://www.wattpad.com/user/For3verWritingCheck it out! <3
 
 





BE YOU

Quotes by skittelgal810

EVERYONE ALWAYS SAYS THEY'RE HERE FOR ME
But in reality they're not, because no one cares enough to be there for me





When you see a cute little boy on the street
and you just know he's going to be hot when he grows up

IT'S OFFICIAL. IT'S REALLY OFFICIAL NOW. THERE'S NOW GOING BACK NOW THAT THEY'RE HERE. THEY'RE NEVER GETTING BACK TOGETHER. I GUESS I'M IN SHOCK CAUSE I ALWAYS HELD ONTO THE FACT THAT THEY COULD STILL TURN BACK. I ALWAYS HELD ONTO THE FACT THAT IT WASN'T OFFICIAL. BUT NOW IT IS. NO U-TURNS AFTER THIS. I SHOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN MY HOPES UP. I KNEW IT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN. I STILL HELD ON TO THE FACT THAT IT WOULD THOUGH. BUT NOW WE CAN'T GO BACK. THEY'RE COMPLETELY, LEGALLY, DIVORCED. SPLIT. NOT MARRIED. NOT TOGETHER. SEPARATED. I'M USED TO THEM NOT BEING IN THE SAME HOUSE, NOT REALLY TOGETHER. BUT NOW IT'S REALLY HAPPENING. IT'S HARD.. THE HARDEST PART IS NOT BEING ABLE TO TALK ABOUT IT WITH ANYONE.. NO ONE UNDERSTANDS.. NO ONE CARES THAT THIS HURTS THAT LITTLE BIT. I GUESS I'LL GET USED TO THE FEELING OF MY PARENTS BEING DIVORCED. BUT THE FEELING THAT WITTY IS THE ONLY PLACE I CAN TALK ABOUT IT, BECUASE NO ONE CARES ENOUGH TO HEAR IT. I DON'T THINK I'LL EVER GET USED TO THAT..





Remember when we were flying so high?
when we were always partners in crime?
so why did we ever say good-bye?


 


I don't think I'll ever
belong anywhere in life

 





I can't even trust you anymore
because everything I say gets heard by her
 

I'M SO SICK OF SITTING HERE WHILE YOU MAKE A FOOL OUT OF ME. 

PEOPLE STILL WONDER WHY THE DEPRESSION AND SUICIDE RATES JUST GO UP EACH YEAR. WELL I KNOW WHY. YES IT'S CAUSE MOST OF THOSE PEOPLE ARE INSECURE, BUT WHAT'S THE REASON FOR INSECURITY AND THE INCREASE OF IT ON TEENS? PERFECTION. YES PERFECTION. AND BEAUTY. THE EXPECTATIONS OF A PRETTY PERSON JUST KEEP INCREASING. YOU HAVE TO HAVE GORGEOUS EYES, HAIR, TEETH, SKIN, LIPS, HEIGHT. PEOPLE EXPECT SO MUCH. BUT IN REALITY NO ONE IS PERFECT. NO ONE CAN EVER BE PERFECT. YOU KNOW THOSE GIRLS YOU SEE IN THE MAGAZINES? THEY  HAVE BEEN EDITED BEYOND BELIEF. THAT POPULAR GIRL IN YOUR SCHOOL THAT ALL THE BOYS LOVE? DO YOU SEE THE MAKE-UP SHE WEARS? NO ONE IS PERFECT. IF WE KEEP COMPARING OUR SELVES TO OTHERS WE WONT GET ANYWHERE. I UNDERSTAND. MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW, BUT I USED TO BE EXTREMELY INSECURE. I HATED MY HAIR, MY CLOTHING, MY  SKINNY-NESS, MY HEIGHT. EVERYTHING. I HAVE TO SAY, MY PERSPECTIVE HAS CHANGED. A LOT. I ACTUALLY THINK I'M PRETTY. NOT AVERAGE, NOT EH, BUT PRETTY. I HONESTLY THINK EVERYONE IS. YOU MAY THINK 'WELL THIS STUPID GIRL HASN'T SEEN ME YET'. MAYBE I HAVEN'T, BUT EVERYONE IS GORGEOUS. YOU CAN'T COMPARE YOURSELF TO OTHERS BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER BE THEM. EVER. AND YOU CAN'T TEAR YOURSELF DOWN SO THAT YOU CAN BE SOMETHING YOU'LL NEVER BE. I'M NOT SAYING DELETE THAT PERSON YOU'RE JEALOUS OF FROM YOUR LIFE, BUT DON'T LET THEIR LOOKS OR ATTITUDE CONTROL YOUR SELF WORTH. DON'T LET ANY SOUL CONVINCE YOU THAT YOU'RE NOT PRETTY. PEOPLE WHO SAY YOU'RE NOT PRETTY ARE JEALOUS. SIMPLE AS THAT. IF NOT, THEY HAVE THEIR OWN PERSONAL PROBLEMS TOO. DON'T LET OTHER CHANGE HOW YOU SEE YOURSELF BECAUSE YOUR OPINION IS WHAT MATTERS MOST. NOT OTHERS. IF ANY ONE EVER HAD SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, CONTACT ME. I'LL HELP. BUT IF YOUR THAT FAR DOWN, DON'T LET IT GO UN-NOTICED. YOU NEED HELP, AND I HOPE I CAN BE THAT FOR ANY OF YOU. YOUR SELF WORTH IS WHAT MATTERS THE MOST. IF THERE ARE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE WHO CHANGE HOW YOU SEE YOURSELF FOR THE WORST, GET AWAY FROM THEM. MAYBE THEY HAVE PROBLEMS TOO, BUT YOU CAN'T LET THEIR PROBLEMS DEPRESS YOU TOO. STICK UP FOR YOURSELF, OR FIND PEOPLE WHO CAN STICK UP FOR YOU. IT'S A CRUEL WORLD BUT ALWAYS REMEBER YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL. YOU REALLY ARE.

I KNOW I CAN'T STOP YOU ANYMORE. SO THIS IS MY GOOD-BYE. I'M GOING TO MISS YOU SO MUCH. I'M GOING TO MISS SITTING IN YOUR BASEMENT, WATCHING DISNEY MOVIES, AND TALKING ABOUT INSIDE JOKES. I'M GONNA MISS THOSE SLEEPOVERS THAT WE STAYED UP UNTIL THREE IN THE MORNING. I'LL MISS THAT TIME YOU FELL ASLEEP WITH YOUR LAPTOP ON YOU, AND WE WOKE UP WITH IT ON THE GROUND. I'LL MISS EVERY SINGLE SOLITARY MEMORY. I STOPPED YOU FROM KILLING YOURSELF THE FIRST TIME FOR ME, NOT FOR YOU. IT WAS FOR ME. I GUESS YOU CAN SAY IT'S SELFISH OF ME TO KEEP YOU IN A LIFE YOU DON'T WANT TO LIVE, BUT I'LL MISS YOU MORE THAN I CAN PUT INTO WORDS. I'M SORRY FOR BEING SUCH AND AWFUL BEST-FRIEND. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, IT HURTS ME SO BAD TO SEE YOU LIKE THIS, BUT I CAN'T STOP YOU NOW. I'M SORRY ABOUT YOUR PARENTS, WHO NEVER UNDERSTOOD. YOUR SISTER WHO ALWAYS SEEMED TO BE IN YOUR WAY. THE DRAMA THAT YOU WERE FORCED INTO. I'M SORRY FOR IT ALL. I FEEL LIKE IT'S ALL MY FAULT. IF IT WEREN'T FOR ME MAYBE YOU WOULDN'T BE IN THIS MESS. YOU'D BE GONE. HAPPIER, IN A BETTER PLACE THAN HERE. I'M SORRY. I'M SO SORRY BAYLEE. I'M SORRY. I'M CRYING RIGHT NOW. I CAN'T HELP IT BUT I AM. BUT THE LEAST YOU DESERVE IS AN APOLOGY FOR EVERYTHING I'VE DONE TO YOU BEFORE YOU GO. I'M SORRY FOR THE THINGS I DON'T EVEN KNOW I DID. I'M JUST SORRY, FOR EVERYTHING. I LOVE YOU BAYLEE. I DON'T KNOW WHEN YOU'RE PLANNING TO GO BUT I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPIER THERE. I'M SORRY.