smileNswim13

Tonight:
I will vent
I will cry
I will struggle
I will stress.
I will stare. 
I will be ashamed.
I will feel ugly.
I will feel fat.
I will feel worthless.
But tomorrow..
I will put on a smile..
And act like last night..
Never happened.
Because I know..
If i say anything..
No one will care anyways.
 

I tested my family..
To see if they really cared.
Once, after I finished crying,
I put mascara on.
And went downstairs.
My eyes were bright red and puffy.
It was obvious I was just crying..
I talked to everyone in my family.
Not one of them mentioned my eyes
or asked if i was okay.
They failed the test.
Why should I even try..
If the people that should always be there for me..
Not even notice what I go through?

Want to know something sad? 
My dentist told me I should consider plastic surgery. 
One of my best guy friends said I was "okay looking."
I weigh more than my older sister.
And people ask me why I am so insecure?

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Girl texting a boy..
Girl-  Hey! Whats up?
Boy- Hi, just tired.
Girl- Then go to sleep.
Boy- No, not anymore.
Girl- Why?
Boy- Because now im texting you.
♥

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I'm the kind of person that..
will start tapping my pencil to the beat of someone eating a kitkat :)