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I can honestly say you've been on my mind since I woke up today.
I look at your photograph all the time. 
These memories come back to life and I don't mind

I remember when we kissed.
I still feel it on my lips.
The time that you danced with me when no music playing.
I remember the simple things; i remember til I cry
But the one thing I wish I forget; the memory I wanna forget, is goodbye.
                                                                                                                                                                                                     
I remember every moment of that weekend. I remember every kiss, every laugh, every smile. I miss you, but you're with her now. I can't stand this. I have to leave, before memories kill me inside. I'm sorry. I want you happy, and I know you'll be better off and happier if you don't have a living memory from the past hanuting you. I want to say this to you, but I couldn't without breaking down. I couldn't send it to you because I'm too scared of your response. I don't know what you're thinking, and I bet you think I'm crazy and this will be like every other time, but I'm done. I won't move down there because I'd run into you eventually. I'm not going to talk to you, I'm not going to listen to stories about you, I won't do it. It will tear me apart, but I can do it. I'm sorry. This is my last goodbye. I'm done killing myself holding onto something that I know will never happen again, and seeing you and knowing I can't kiss you. Goodbye.    Forever.

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i try and move on, but it doesn't happen. rumors surround me daily, i get mean texts, i hear people talking about me behind my back... same that happened in school. i can't believe he'd stoop that low and break up with me because of rumors. he should take a walk in my shoes one of these days. then MAYBE he'd realize how hard it was and is for me.... i don't understand. he said he really liked me but he won't even look at me or talk to me anymore.... yeah great person huh? seems like he has a lot of respect for girls huh?

sorry i just had to vent and i couldn't hold it in anymore. i'm now bawling. it's been over a month, and he's with another girl..... i don't know why i can't move on. i just thought... idk

I'm a girl,
whose looking for a cute guy (13-14),
who treats me right,
will lend me his sweatshirt,
cuddle with me when i need him,
and be there for me, always.

I'm just a girl or tries to please everyone, tries to have fun, tries to be strong, but now I'm at my breaking point. My life is falling apart.
I didn't try to ruin Emily and Ryan.
I didn't try to steal Jon from Jordann.
I didn't sleep with Dan.
I don't try and screw things up. Things are getting blamed on me that never happened. I just want to be the old Jess. The scared, content in her own shell, never out there, quiet Jess. I never meant for ANY OF THIS to happen. It may seem really bad, but I'm not that bad of a person. I feel like I have to prove myself to everyone now, but you know what? I'm not. I'll go back and fall off the face of the earth. I'll go, like everyone wants. I'll take the drama with me. I'm sorry I caused you so much pain. I really am. Consider me gone. 

I think I am really falling for him.
He's sweet
He makes me laugh until i cry
He's not afraid to be romantic and show his feminine side. 
He cares about himself.
He makes sure he knows he makes me feel special and his one and only. 
He's smart.
He's strong
He's cute.
He gives his attention to me.
He's honest
He's special.

BEST OF ALL... TOMORROW.... HE'LL BE MINE <3

I fake the smiles. 
I fake the laughs.
no one notices if i'm in sweats or tight jeans.
no one cares.
when i'm upset, no one asks if i'm ok or gives me a hug.
when i'm sick, i don't get messages asking if i'm ok.
no one notices me.
if i disappeared, no one would notice or care. 
why live in complete aggony when i could be happy somewhere else?

what would be the harm in that? 
someone better could take my place. 
Someone who is worth something to people.