soccermm

please don't say you love me
cause I might not say it back

I texted my best guy friend because I found out he was in town again and confronted him about not telling me and he said that he thought i would have been too busy with work to hangout with him..we talked again for the first time in a week (: things are soo good right now. thankyou to all the people who told me to text him. than I decided to make a fool outta myself while on skype with him when we were planning what to do when we hangout :/ haha gotta love best guy friends.

one of my closest friends(I also really really like him) and I..are drifting apart..I haven't heard from him in almost a week..usually we would talk all day long everyday..I miss him like crazy but I'm too stubborn to text him first...for awhile I've been the only one putting any effort into our friendship..so in a way I just wanna left go...but something is making me hold onto him..I'm scared though..he's helped me so much..I'd be so lost without him..he taught me to roll with the punches that life takes at you and to always be happy but he's also taught me that I'll fight a lot with the people I love most because they are worth fighting for. he taught me how to love again after I thought my heart was broken too many times to count. he's an amazing friend who I don't wanna lose but sometimes you just cannot keep a friendship going if it's one sided. I love this boy..with everything I have. I'd give up everything to be with him and I'd drop everything to help him. right now I'm sitting on my bed crying because I have no clue what I should do. should I fight for our friendship or just let it go?

confession #3: I've never been close to my parents or siblings but I was really close to my Grandpa and Aunt before they passed away from cancer :(

confession #2: i have more of a friends with benifits kinda relationship with my best guy friend then a normal friendship

confession #1: i'm not a virgin.
please don't hate if you don't know the whole story

for every fave, I'll do a confession (:

Is there any 18 or 19 year olds on here?

Depression isn't always that girl that's crying in the bathroom

or the boy that is always wearing long sleeves. It isn't

always suicide notes and pill bottles. Sometime's

it's all smiles and good grades. Sometimes it's

the boy that's always helpful and the girl

that you always borrow things from.

Depression isn't always that

easy to notice.