sparkels1998

Haii aha. Thanks. And suree, I'll follow you back aha. Sorry, I haven't been on lately so I just saw this. However I'm not too awesome. I guess you'd have to know me to know that. Aha.

Hii. Aha.

Hey. So uh. I loovee your taste in music. And your quotes are good, too. Like. Hai.

Lol. Thanks!! Hi. ^-^

Hii. Aha.

People just don't like me. I've tried talking to people before. They tend to ignore me.

It's not like there's anything wrong with that. At least you have people to hang out with in school. I walk by myself to every class.

Being by yourself isn't fun

Try to talk to people

People just don't like me. I've tried talking to people before. They tend to ignore me.

Nobody loves me. I don't even try to please people. I just do whatever. Either way I'm still alone.

I'm stuck with who I am..ha. If I could I would change but I can't. Soo yeah ah. I wish I were gifted though. Like then people might like me.

I bet people love you

I am not who I am
I am who people want me to be

I'm about pleasing people


And only a few people like me

Bein gifted is kinda stupid
A lot of people hate me for it

Nobody loves me. I don't even try to please people. I just do whatever. Either way I'm still alone.

I don't talk to anyone but my parents, if I could I wouldn't talk to them, but what can you do. I'm just like an outsider. Just going thorough the motions each day.

That would be me

Awkward Eric hi hangs out with the group of lesbians at school

I'm not even kidding

It's not like there's anything wrong with that. At least you have people to hang out with in school. I walk by myself to every class.

Being by yourself isn't fun

Try to talk to people

People just don't like me. I've tried talking to people before. They tend to ignore me.

Oh aha. I'm in honors English, so I'm in ninth grade, taking a tenth grade class. And all of my stuff is high 80's-high 90's. However I do have a 69 in math..heh. Umh math is difficult. But besides that I'm good. Yet I still can't dye my hair. I do it with food coloring hah.

I used manic panic temporary dye :)

I am considered "gifted" in many subjects

I used to act dumb bc. I thought people would like me more

But no one did
So I am who I am

I'm stuck with who I am..ha. If I could I would change but I can't. Soo yeah ah. I wish I were gifted though. Like then people might like me.

I bet people love you

I am not who I am
I am who people want me to be

I'm about pleasing people


And only a few people like me

Bein gifted is kinda stupid
A lot of people hate me for it

Nobody loves me. I don't even try to please people. I just do whatever. Either way I'm still alone.

My mom would literally murder me. Then bring me back to life and dye my hair back to my original color, then kill me again.

My mum has given up
I get really good marks
So she leaves me alone
Straight As
I'm in advanced classes
(I'm a year nine in a year eleven English class)
So she just leaves me alone

Oh aha. I'm in honors English, so I'm in ninth grade, taking a tenth grade class. And all of my stuff is high 80's-high 90's. However I do have a 69 in math..heh. Umh math is difficult. But besides that I'm good. Yet I still can't dye my hair. I do it with food coloring hah.

I used manic panic temporary dye :)

I am considered "gifted" in many subjects

I used to act dumb bc. I thought people would like me more

But no one did
So I am who I am

I'm stuck with who I am..ha. If I could I would change but I can't. Soo yeah ah. I wish I were gifted though. Like then people might like me.

I bet people love you

I am not who I am
I am who people want me to be

I'm about pleasing people


And only a few people like me

Bein gifted is kinda stupid
A lot of people hate me for it

Nobody loves me. I don't even try to please people. I just do whatever. Either way I'm still alone.

I'm really not though. I'm like a loner and nobody likes me so I live on the Internet where people can't see me therefor no judgment from Internet people friends. And I agree. The perks is definitely one of my favorite movies. It's literally the best.

Well I'm sure people do like you

I mean if people like me then they like you for sure

I don't talk to anyone except my parents

I don't talk to anyone but my parents, if I could I wouldn't talk to them, but what can you do. I'm just like an outsider. Just going thorough the motions each day.

That would be me

Awkward Eric hi hangs out with the group of lesbians at school

I'm not even kidding

It's not like there's anything wrong with that. At least you have people to hang out with in school. I walk by myself to every class.

Being by yourself isn't fun

Try to talk to people

People just don't like me. I've tried talking to people before. They tend to ignore me.

No way. I loove them aha. And I wish I could have pink hair! o: my mom won't let me though._. Ugh aha. And you're welcome. Heh.

I just did it , I didn't exactly ask, I did it in my bedroom >.<

My mom would literally murder me. Then bring me back to life and dye my hair back to my original color, then kill me again.

My mum has given up
I get really good marks
So she leaves me alone
Straight As
I'm in advanced classes
(I'm a year nine in a year eleven English class)
So she just leaves me alone

Oh aha. I'm in honors English, so I'm in ninth grade, taking a tenth grade class. And all of my stuff is high 80's-high 90's. However I do have a 69 in math..heh. Umh math is difficult. But besides that I'm good. Yet I still can't dye my hair. I do it with food coloring hah.

I used manic panic temporary dye :)

I am considered "gifted" in many subjects

I used to act dumb bc. I thought people would like me more

But no one did
So I am who I am

I'm stuck with who I am..ha. If I could I would change but I can't. Soo yeah ah. I wish I were gifted though. Like then people might like me.

I bet people love you

I am not who I am
I am who people want me to be

I'm about pleasing people


And only a few people like me

Bein gifted is kinda stupid
A lot of people hate me for it

Nobody loves me. I don't even try to please people. I just do whatever. Either way I'm still alone.

Hi Victoria, I'm Becca aha. And thanks. I love Sleeping with Sirens. c: and I like your picture, you look pretty.

Thank you very much

I'm just a pink haired nobody thought

I am wearing a sleeping with sirens sweater in my picture actually

No way. I loove them aha. And I wish I could have pink hair! o: my mom won't let me though._. Ugh aha. And you're welcome. Heh.

I just did it , I didn't exactly ask, I did it in my bedroom >.<

My mom would literally murder me. Then bring me back to life and dye my hair back to my original color, then kill me again.

My mum has given up
I get really good marks
So she leaves me alone
Straight As
I'm in advanced classes
(I'm a year nine in a year eleven English class)
So she just leaves me alone

Oh aha. I'm in honors English, so I'm in ninth grade, taking a tenth grade class. And all of my stuff is high 80's-high 90's. However I do have a 69 in math..heh. Umh math is difficult. But besides that I'm good. Yet I still can't dye my hair. I do it with food coloring hah.

I used manic panic temporary dye :)

I am considered "gifted" in many subjects

I used to act dumb bc. I thought people would like me more

But no one did
So I am who I am

I'm stuck with who I am..ha. If I could I would change but I can't. Soo yeah ah. I wish I were gifted though. Like then people might like me.

I bet people love you

I am not who I am
I am who people want me to be

I'm about pleasing people


And only a few people like me

Bein gifted is kinda stupid
A lot of people hate me for it

Nobody loves me. I don't even try to please people. I just do whatever. Either way I'm still alone.

I'm actually not attractive. But I do love the perks.

I bet you are though, everybody is in their own way

Even I somehow am

The perks is amazing

I'm really not though. I'm like a loner and nobody likes me so I live on the Internet where people can't see me therefor no judgment from Internet people friends. And I agree. The perks is definitely one of my favorite movies. It's literally the best.

Well I'm sure people do like you

I mean if people like me then they like you for sure

I don't talk to anyone except my parents

I don't talk to anyone but my parents, if I could I wouldn't talk to them, but what can you do. I'm just like an outsider. Just going thorough the motions each day.

That would be me

Awkward Eric hi hangs out with the group of lesbians at school

I'm not even kidding

It's not like there's anything wrong with that. At least you have people to hang out with in school. I walk by myself to every class.

Being by yourself isn't fun

Try to talk to people

People just don't like me. I've tried talking to people before. They tend to ignore me.

You are my 100th follow, simply because(if that is you in your picture.. d: ) You look extremely attractive. Like hai.c:

I like the quote on your picture
It's from perks

Thank you
I bet you're very attractive

I'm actually not attractive. But I do love the perks.

I bet you are though, everybody is in their own way

Even I somehow am

The perks is amazing

I'm really not though. I'm like a loner and nobody likes me so I live on the Internet where people can't see me therefor no judgment from Internet people friends. And I agree. The perks is definitely one of my favorite movies. It's literally the best.

Well I'm sure people do like you

I mean if people like me then they like you for sure

I don't talk to anyone except my parents

I don't talk to anyone but my parents, if I could I wouldn't talk to them, but what can you do. I'm just like an outsider. Just going thorough the motions each day.

That would be me

Awkward Eric hi hangs out with the group of lesbians at school

I'm not even kidding

It's not like there's anything wrong with that. At least you have people to hang out with in school. I walk by myself to every class.

Being by yourself isn't fun

Try to talk to people

People just don't like me. I've tried talking to people before. They tend to ignore me.

Well I do, but it's like kinda weird.

haha that's okay..I don't judge

Okay, so this is going to sound a little odd, but I had this dream, and it really freaked me out. /(>.<)\ I just..don't know..it just really did something to me.

okay well you want to talk about it ?

Well I do, but it's like kinda weird.

haha that's okay..I don't judge

Like ugh.

Yeah, that's been happening to me a lot lately. Like ew.

mmmmhhhhmmm!!!!!!!!!!!

Like ugh.

I don't believe in my self. I do hate the fact that I hate my body, and I do hate that I starve, but that is how I live. I'm just never going to love myself, I've been like this for a long time. I'm never going to be happy. And honesty? I probably don't even deserve to be happy. I'm just sick and tired of people making fun of me for the way I look and how I do things. You might think that people care about me, but nobody does. I see it each and every day- nobody loves me, and nobody cares about me. And you might believe in me, but I've lost hope in myself a long time ago.

I don't get it why wound't you deserve to be happy. Everyone deserves it.
The first step is seeing you don't eat normal. Do you think you eat normal? Do you eat as much as everyone? You don't have to answer to those questions to me, just think about it for a while. You are as good as everyone else. You can eat as much as they do. It's not that you don't need to eat. Everyone has to eat.
If you don't eat for a long time you get hospitalized. Your hair falls out like crazy. You're almost bald. Your skin is like paper and it's all covered in little hairs becouse you don't have any fat cells in your body. Your nails split and crack and break. The fact that you don't eat doesn't make you happy, it just covers up all the sadness. Plus, it leads to auto destruction.
Screw people who make fun of you. You look just perfect. You do everything fine.
If you're really so lonely - try, and find a friend. It is hard, I know it's easier to say, but you at least have to try. Get involved in some kind of activity clubs, they don't have to be at school - maybe some art, sport, singing or dancing classes? You will find someone nice there. Get their number or ask them to hang out, maybe play some monopoly or something like that.
You have to find that hope you said you lost. It's very important and I hope you'll keep looking for it.
I told you earlier I had simmilar problems to yours. You're not in this alone. I know how it feels. I know this probably doesn't mean anything to you, but I'll try and try and try. I hope someday something will happen and you'll snap out of it. I really, really hope you will.
When times where hard for me I once tried and took a pen and wrote. I wrote a letter for an imaginary friend about my problems and how I hated everything at the time. That's how I started writing a diary. It helps a bit, I quess. I also wrote down motivations on how to get healthy again. Why I should eat, why I should live (when I was suicidal). Sometimes I even doodled something if I felt like it. You should try if you want, I have a feeling you might like it :)
Stay strong, I still believe in you