Status:
I just hide behind a smile and fake it.
Joined:
July 17, 2012
Last Seen:
9 years
Birthday:
October 12
user id:
318290
Location:
Land-of-Self-Hate
Gender:
F
I'm Becca.
I like to draw, sing, and listen to music.
Bring Me The Horizon
Of Mice & Men
Pierce The Veil
and Sleeping with Sirens
^Saved me more than you would think.^
My favorite color is green.
People need to stop bullying.
They are killing people,
And they don't seem to care.
Well like it's weird, but okay ah. So Reid (from Criminal Minds, duuhh) Was like giving me like a depression evaluation thing, and it turned out that I was seriously depressed, and was like potentially dangerous to myself and other people around me(bit surprise, considering I'm depressed) So he took me away to some place where I would stay and stuff--and the room was small and covered with books so i wouldn't get bored or something, and I was left there and he was the only one I wanted to talk to(obviously-he is tooo hoott) and like I was scared and stuff. So like he was going to go home, but I didn't want him to leave. I asked him to sit with me and like he complemented, trying to make me feel better and stuff, and he like slept with me because I didn't want to be alone. Then I woke up. Then I went back to sleep...because vacation ah. But I had a totally different dream this time. This time I dreamt that, basically, more or less, my right arm got stuck in a vacuum-type thing and my arm got all cut up. My right arm is where I used to like cut and stuff. It just really freaked me out, and I'm probably missing a lot of detail, but that's like it.
So this is going to sound a bit odd, but I had this dream, and it really scared me. Not so much as scared..but it like made me think a lot. And I don't like what I came up with, I guess.
That's not odd at all, I have dreams all the time that freak me out. A dream is your imagination working when you sleep, so maybe what you have been thinking about or watching or listening to recently triggered something and when you went to sleep you kinda squished them all together to get this weird dream that freaked you out. Just a guess...
Well like it's weird, but okay ah. So Reid (from Criminal Minds, duuhh) Was like giving me like a depression evaluation thing, and it turned out that I was seriously depressed, and was like potentially dangerous to myself and other people around me(bit surprise, considering I'm depressed) So he took me away to some place where I would stay and stuff--and the room was small and covered with books so i wouldn't get bored or something, and I was left there and he was the only one I wanted to talk to(obviously-he is tooo hoott) and like I was scared and stuff. So like he was going to go home, but I didn't want him to leave. I asked him to sit with me and like he complemented, trying to make me feel better and stuff, and he like slept with me because I didn't want to be alone. Then I woke up. Then I went back to sleep...because vacation ah. But I had a totally different dream this time. This time I dreamt that, basically, more or less, my right arm got stuck in a vacuum-type thing and my arm got all cut up. My right arm is where I used to like cut and stuff. It just really freaked me out, and I'm probably missing a lot of detail, but that's like it.
then thats why you need to do something to be proud of you cant just sit there feeling bad you need to go out and do something or nothing will ever change
then thats why you need to do something to be proud of you cant just sit there feeling bad you need to go out and do something or nothing will ever change
then thats why you need to do something to be proud of you cant just sit there feeling bad you need to go out and do something or nothing will ever change
then thats why you need to do something to be proud of you cant just sit there feeling bad you need to go out and do something or nothing will ever change
then thats why you need to do something to be proud of you cant just sit there feeling bad you need to go out and do something or nothing will ever change
then thats why you need to do something to be proud of you cant just sit there feeling bad you need to go out and do something or nothing will ever change
then thats why you need to do something to be proud of you cant just sit there feeling bad you need to go out and do something or nothing will ever change
then thats why you need to do something to be proud of you cant just sit there feeling bad you need to go out and do something or nothing will ever change
But they mater to me. In all honesty, I'm the most ugly person I know. And I'm not just saying that. I truly believe it. And sorry to say it, but I really can't believe what you say, mostly because you don't know what I look like. But I'm simply ugly. I'm fat and ugly.
i really wish you would believe me, because i know what youre feeling i have been through it, and i know that it can get better, and that is why you should believe me
then thats why you need to do something to be proud of you cant just sit there feeling bad you need to go out and do something or nothing will ever change
I don't care about anything. I just really want to be skinny and pretty. It's been my goal for as long as I can remember. That is the only thing that might make me happy. Until then, I'm stuck the way I am. Constantly unhappy.
see thats the thing though, you need to change your mindset. honestly i bet youre gorgeous, but youre choosing to see the bad side of you and pick out all your little flaws, if i did that i could talk about how ugly and terrible i am too, i mean im too skinny, i have awkward knees and legs, my eyes are a little uneven, my skin isnt as smooth as id like it to be, i have scars on my body, my eyes are also slighty different colors, my eyebrows and my hair color dont match, i have wierd looking fingers because of slight arthritis, i have weird natural hair, and i could go on and on, but you have to ignore the negative and think about the good, and i dont know how many times i have to tell you that looks do not matter.
But they mater to me. In all honesty, I'm the most ugly person I know. And I'm not just saying that. I truly believe it. And sorry to say it, but I really can't believe what you say, mostly because you don't know what I look like. But I'm simply ugly. I'm fat and ugly.
i really wish you would believe me, because i know what youre feeling i have been through it, and i know that it can get better, and that is why you should believe me
if thats what youre really searching for then being pretty isnt the way to get there, the way to get there is to get involved in something you care about, work hard in school so you are able to go to college and become who you have always wanted to be, the way to get there is to simply find happiness and the good in yourself, you cant expect looks to do that for you
I don't care about anything. I just really want to be skinny and pretty. It's been my goal for as long as I can remember. That is the only thing that might make me happy. Until then, I'm stuck the way I am. Constantly unhappy.
see thats the thing though, you need to change your mindset. honestly i bet youre gorgeous, but youre choosing to see the bad side of you and pick out all your little flaws, if i did that i could talk about how ugly and terrible i am too, i mean im too skinny, i have awkward knees and legs, my eyes are a little uneven, my skin isnt as smooth as id like it to be, i have scars on my body, my eyes are also slighty different colors, my eyebrows and my hair color dont match, i have wierd looking fingers because of slight arthritis, i have weird natural hair, and i could go on and on, but you have to ignore the negative and think about the good, and i dont know how many times i have to tell you that looks do not matter.
But they mater to me. In all honesty, I'm the most ugly person I know. And I'm not just saying that. I truly believe it. And sorry to say it, but I really can't believe what you say, mostly because you don't know what I look like. But I'm simply ugly. I'm fat and ugly.
i really wish you would believe me, because i know what youre feeling i have been through it, and i know that it can get better, and that is why you should believe me
i can promise you that it is, i can promise that because i have gone through that, i was always the ugly girl nobody liked i was awkward, i was weird, i was bad at everything, then i decided to bleach my hair to try fake tanner, wear lots of makeup, make sure i only bought a certain type of clothes and act a certain way, and ill tell you it doesnt work, it makes you appear shallow, it makes you, not you, and it will make you miserable, youll lose who you are and itll be hard to find yourself, it led me down roads i never wanted to go, and slowly i stopped caring, i started doing things i wanted to do, not things to make me popular, i got involved in my church, i joined a sports team, i joined clubs, i stopped bleaching my hair, i stopped wearing so much makeup, i even stopped styling my hair every day, and honestly i became much prettier, i became much happier, i made so many new friends, true friends, i found out who i am, and thats what you have to do, you have to be the change in a positive way, simply changing your outlook can change your entire life
then thats why you need to do something to be proud of you cant just sit there feeling bad you need to go out and do something or nothing will ever change
then thats the kind of thing you have to change in your life, it wont be easy and it might not come natural but its one of the best and most noticeable changes you will make in your life
i can promise you that it is, i can promise that because i have gone through that, i was always the ugly girl nobody liked i was awkward, i was weird, i was bad at everything, then i decided to bleach my hair to try fake tanner, wear lots of makeup, make sure i only bought a certain type of clothes and act a certain way, and ill tell you it doesnt work, it makes you appear shallow, it makes you, not you, and it will make you miserable, youll lose who you are and itll be hard to find yourself, it led me down roads i never wanted to go, and slowly i stopped caring, i started doing things i wanted to do, not things to make me popular, i got involved in my church, i joined a sports team, i joined clubs, i stopped bleaching my hair, i stopped wearing so much makeup, i even stopped styling my hair every day, and honestly i became much prettier, i became much happier, i made so many new friends, true friends, i found out who i am, and thats what you have to do, you have to be the change in a positive way, simply changing your outlook can change your entire life
then thats why you need to do something to be proud of you cant just sit there feeling bad you need to go out and do something or nothing will ever change