It's only been a
week, but it feels like forever since I've seen
his smiling face. I've been in bed, trying to get
it through my head that he's really gone. I want to
packup and head back up to the hospital, but I know he
won't be there. I've gotten about 20 letters in the
mail, but I haven't opened any of them because the
reminder hurts more than anything. It's hard to
wake up in the morning, because I have nothing to do with
my life. I lost 90% of my friends because I was up in the
hospital all summer with Chance. I'm
actually going to ask my mom to send me to crosspoint,
so I can get better. It's my choice, and as
of right now I can't get ahold of reality. It
could be a while before I update again, but thank you all
so much for being there for me. Witty is truely a miracle.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart to the
top.
RestEasyChanceLee<3
On July 25th, the
doctors rushed in, when his heartbeat started to slow. They
told me he wouldn't make it through the night. I
smiled, and said "I'm just happy he will finally
have no pain." The doctors left after that. I began to
cry,though, because I loved him. At 9:24 p.m. Chance took
his last breath. I got to spend 10 minutes with
him. At 9:36, I let go of his hand, and kissed
him on the lips one last time. On July 28th, I watched him
being lowered into the ground.
Cancer took my little boy.
RestInPeaceChanceLee<3
I've been crying all
day. It's impossible to think that my baby boy only has
a month or less to live. This afternoon, he was put on
lifesupport. He couldn't breathe on his own either.
He's unresponsive still. I told you guys, if
anything had gotten worse I would update you, well here you
go. If he's not responsive in a week, I might have to
pull his life support </3...
StayStrongChanceLee<3
Hi. Today my life
took a spiral downward. Chance has been really sick the
last week. His fever is going up at down from
96-103. The doctor said it's a cause from the
cancer, and it's spreading to his lungs, and he
won't have much longer to live. He
is recieving chemotherapy through a
catheter. This is to be kept in his
chest, attacking the cancer
cells. Please keep him in your
prayers.
StayStrongChanceLee<3
Hi. Today my life
took a spiral downward. Chance has been really sick the
last week. His fever is going up at down from
96-103. The doctor said it's a cause from the
cancer, and it's spreading to his lungs, and he
won't have much longer to live. He
is recieving chemotherapy through a
catheter. This is to be kept in his
chest, attacking the cancer
cells. Please keep him in your
prayers. StayStrongChanceLee<3
Hi. Here to update you
on Chance. His health is still perfectly fine, his
hair has grown so much, and my baby boy is growing up so
fast! Thanks all who have stuck with me through this.
You make everything easier when I have someone to talk
to, sorry about my not updating in a while. I will update
again soon.
StayStrongChanceLee<3
Hi. Here to update you
on Chance. His health is still perfectly fine, his
hair has grown so much, and my baby boy is growing up so
fast! Thanks all who have stuck with me through this.
You make everything easier when I have someone to talk
to, sorry about my not updating in a while. I will update
again soon.
StayStrongChanceLee<3
Hi, So I'm
here to update you on recent things that have happened.
Today, Chance ate his first thing of baby food.
I wasn't aloud to give him much because it
makes him very sick to his stomach. But he ate carrots. He
absolutely loved them. His dad came to see him today for
the first time since he was born. He didn't stay
with me through the pregnancy, even though he knew it was
his he demanded a test. I felt like he didn't
trust me enough to deserve me, so I told him if he was
going to doubt me not to stay, and he didn't. He
had no Idea about Chance being sick. He picked
him up for the first time and I actually seen him cry but
he wiped the tear away before it got to far down his face.
I don't regret anything as of now, but I have a feeling
down the road I will. It's not very often I get to
hold him because he has so many things hooked up to him
that I'm scared to. It's not that I don't love
him, I just can't I'm scared to feel him like this.
But I picked him up today, and his eyes got extremely
bright, and excited. He actually reached up and touched my
face. I thank god everyday for giving me such a
special little boy.
StayStrongChanceLee<3