staystrongchance

It's only been a week, but it feels like forever since I've seen his smiling face. I've been in bed, trying to get it through my head that he's really gone. I want to packup and head back up to the hospital, but I know he won't be there. I've gotten about 20 letters in the mail, but I haven't opened any of them because the reminder hurts more than anything. It's hard to wake up in the morning, because I have nothing to do with my life. I lost 90% of my friends because I was up in the hospital all summer with Chance. I'm actually going to ask my mom to send me to crosspoint, so I can get better. It's my choice, and as of right now I can't get ahold of reality. It could be a while before I update again, but thank you all so much for being there for me. Witty is truely a miracle. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart to the top. 
RestEasyChanceLee<3

Mommy will always love you.
RestInPeaceChanceLee<3

On July 25th, the doctors rushed in, when his heartbeat started to slow. They told me he wouldn't make it through the night. I smiled, and said "I'm just happy he will finally have no pain." The doctors left after that. I began to cry,though, because I loved him. At 9:24 p.m. Chance took his last breath. I got to spend 10 minutes with him.  At 9:36, I let go of his hand, and kissed him on the lips one last time. On July 28th, I watched him being lowered into the ground.
Cancer took my little boy.
RestInPeaceChanceLee<3

I've been crying all day. It's impossible to think that my baby boy only has a month or less to live. This afternoon, he was put on lifesupport. He couldn't breathe on his own either. He's unresponsive still.  I told you guys, if anything had gotten worse I would update you, well here you go. If he's not responsive in a week, I might have to pull his life support </3... 
StayStrongChanceLee<3

This morning, Chance became unresponsive. His vitals and everything are normal, but he still hasn't awoken. Please keep my baby boy in your prayers, I will update you if anything gets better or worse, thanks so much guys.   
StayStrongChanceLee<3

Hi. Today my life took a spiral downward. Chance has been really sick the last week. His fever is going up at down from 96-103. The doctor said it's a cause from the cancer, and it's spreading to his lungs, and he won't have much longer to live. He is recieving chemotherapy through a catheter. This is to be kept in his chest, attacking the cancer cells. Please keep him in your prayers.   
StayStrongChanceLee<3

Hi. Today my life took a spiral downward. Chance has been really sick the last week. His fever is going up at down from 96-103. The doctor said it's a cause from the cancer, and it's spreading to his lungs, and he won't have much longer to live. He is recieving chemotherapy through a catheter. This is to be kept in his chest, attacking the cancer cells. Please keep him in your prayers.   StayStrongChanceLee<3

Hi. Here to update you on Chance. His health is still perfectly fine, his hair has grown so much, and my baby boy is growing up so fast! Thanks all who have stuck with me through this. You make everything easier when I have someone to talk to, sorry about my not updating in a while. I will update again soon.   StayStrongChanceLee<3

Hi. Here to update you on Chance. His health is still perfectly fine, his hair has grown so much, and my baby boy is growing up so fast! Thanks all who have stuck with me through this. You make everything easier when I have someone to talk to, sorry about my not updating in a while. I will update again soon.   StayStrongChanceLee<3

Hi, So I'm here to update you on recent things that have happened. Today, Chance ate his first thing of baby food. I wasn't aloud to give him much because it makes him very sick to his stomach. But he ate carrots. He absolutely loved them. His dad came to see him today for the first time since he was born. He didn't stay with me through the pregnancy, even though he knew it was his he demanded a test. I felt like he didn't trust me enough to deserve me, so I told him if he was going to doubt me not to stay, and he didn't. He had no Idea about Chance being sick. He picked him up for the first time and I actually seen him cry but he wiped the tear away before it got to far down his face. I don't regret anything as of now, but I have a feeling down the road I will. It's not very often I get to hold him because he has so many things hooked up to him that I'm scared to. It's not that I don't love him, I just can't I'm scared to feel him like this. But I picked him up today, and his eyes got extremely bright, and excited. He actually reached up and touched my face. I thank god everyday for giving me such a special little boy.  StayStrongChanceLee<3