strengthisbeauty

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Quotes by strengthisbeauty

To the boy
who i used to love
to the way he made my inner
body tingle 
every time i heard his name
to the way my face lit up every time i 
saw his posture
his gentle approach
or the sounds of words he 
used to say
to the way he missed me at 2 in the afternoon
called my job
asked to speak to me
so he can hear my voice
missed me at 10 at night
called my phone
saw me,
 
To all the sadness
that i kept hidden
to all the passion
i had
to the way i looked him in the eye
and saw everything
the hurt 
the pain
the happiness
the love
the way his eyes gleamed
everytime he saw something he liked
or the way 
his voice changes
everytime he saw something he didn’t like
 
To the way he used to 
look me in the eye
and say one word
and i would surrender
 
i loved him
i liked him
i hated him
i dont know
i missed him when 
i drove alone down the barren roads
and i missed him even more
when i heard Ed Sheeran
playing slowly from the radio
I missed him when i look to my left 
and no one was there
it was not fair
for him to leave
me in this mess
of emotions
scars that were bandaged up
that he ripped piece by piece
he left me barren, naked of emotion
and then slowly left me alone in this mess
and now all i do is wait for his arrival
wait for the judge to remove him
from the gates of hell
wait till i hear the call
“ I am finally free”
and than i will embrace him
his lies
his vulnerability
his crooked smile
and overly annoying laugh
because besides
i've always wanted to play the hero 
and eventually i will save the villain. 
 
His first love
was a sweet mix 
of sugar 
with a hint of salt
his first love
was the girl
who knew how to 
take care of his flaws
who knew how 
to speak to him 
without saying anything
just by looking
who knew how to love every 
piece of him 
even when he did not adorn himself
 
his first love left without a word
without a say
just left 
leaving his pieces astray..
but then returned 
and he fell for her 
all over again.
 
her first love was mix of water
and a smooth surface of oil
which floated there 
did not mix in 
but did not repel
her first love 
was a ray of sunshine
after a rainy week
her love was a gleam of light
shining through 
her window 
as she drives
windows down 
speeding on the highway
her first love was 
the adrenaline you get
heart beating
palms sweating
after you did something wrong
her first love
was the book 
hidden behind 
the teachers desk 
because
it was too graphic
too mature
her first love was real
and also left
but came back 
and she let love enter once again. 
 
two lost souls drifted away
from each other
and returned where they belong
they settled for what they knew was normal
they settled for what they knew was right
and apart they began to love carelessly
and they drifted apart
and began to speak less and less 
and instead willingly left the future unknown 
and returned to their pasts
once again 
and again 
and again. 
 
 
Its been almost a year since i heard your voice Almost a year since i saw your smile almost a year since i felt your embrace its been quite a while. I should have forgotten I should have moved on I should have hidden you away In memories that should not have led me astray Im older , more mature I miss you.... i swear im sane but the thought of us not talking is driving me insane I made a mistake you hate me you despise me but i love you i need you. It took me a while to call out to you im okay i say but im sitting here crying lost without you never finding my way....
Maybe it’s the way I saw through you’re every tear
Maybe it’s the way I helped you overcome every fear
Maybe it’s the way we looked through each other
Maybe that is why I considered you my lover
 
You told me you loved every part of me
You told me that I was the only one that can actually see
You looked me in the eye, said everything on your mind
You helped me see beauty that I could never find
 
I loved the way you’re eyes light when you speak
I loved the way you made me feel strong, rather than weak
You called my name when no one else was there
I sat there and listened, all I did was care
 
I love you with every part of me
I hope one day you will be able to see
See the tremendous amount of love I have for you
And you will be able to love me too
The way the trees move in the night sky
The way the birds soar, fly
The way the sun sets at the right time
The way nature speaks to you without spoken words, like a mime
 
I walked through the forest and looked up into the dark
I looked at the tress and noticed the huge supporting bark
I looked at the grass underneath my feet
Where the beauty of the world and my intricate brain finally meet
 
I saw this girl picking a flower so rare
She looked so free, without a worry or a single care
I asked her if she wanted to walk
She said okay, but we cannot talk
 
She told me just look and see
Just spread your wings and become free
No words were spoken at all
I felt like I was rising and could not fall
 
She took me somewhere far away
Told me now all we do is lay
Lay here with the sun hitting us
Don’t speak, don’t make a fuss
 
I said okay, did not plead
I was the follower and she was the one in the lead
We laid there looking at the sun
Feeling as though we can conquer anything, we won
 
Then we left this magical place so free
We became hit with a sense of reality
We went back to our lives set for us
And then that is when we began to speak, to fuss
 
She taught me something that I will never forget
She told me life is nothing but what you set
She taught me to see beauty in little things
She taught me to finally fly and show my intricate wings
I never fell so hard before.
I never thought i could ever soar
I  thought love was a joke
I saw it in my dreams until i finally awoke

I loved the impossible, the ones hard to find
I loved the mean, never the kind
I used to fall for those who broke me
Those who made me blind to all beauty

Until i met you, my dear
You helped me escape my upmost fear
Fear of falling so i can never soar
loving so fast, and breaking even more

You helped me see light
Overcome every obstacle, every fight
My lover, i thank you for all you've done
You helped me see light as bright as the sun

Baby, i want you all to me
You are the only thing i can truly see
i broke it all just for your sake
and now those peices are ones we both will make

Heart beats fast
My love for you will always last
I cant stand the thought of losing you
Please baby, dont let me lose you

Please take my hand
Please baby, I need to understand
do you love me
or do you love who we used to be

My salvation, my eternity, my wife
You are the only thing I am missing in this life
Im losing my mind, going insane
I cant control all of this pain

Please come to me
stop playing with me
stop controlling the emotions I feel
Every second I start to uncover and peel

Please baby I can t live like this 
they say nothing lasts forever and love is just a bliss
I dont believe them when they speak
because youre love is the only thing that I will forever seak

Every rule
I broke for you
Every touch
I felt for you
Every cry
I cried for you
Every laugh'
I laughed with you
Every smile
was because of you

Every cut
I cut for you
Every night
I cried becasue of you
Every lie
I lied for you
Every dark poem
reffered to you
Loss of friends 
was because of you

Sad part
You will never care
you left me
You hurt me
You broke me
And now youre perfectly fine
without me
Illuminated lights

A dark face
A very intertwined space
There is no light that I can see
There is no light that will set me free

Light
It is the escape from every fight
It comes in different ways
but it usually never stays

When you awake to light flowing in from all sides
and you notice the darkness eventually hides
You look outside and see a new day
That light is one that awakes you, and helps you find your way

When you look in her eyes
you see light, one that shows she has wings that will fly
You see pain
but you eventually see glimmers that keep her sane

Darkness usually comes when eveyone is asleep
darkness comes with pain and defeat
When you day ends some rest their head
but others take in the darkness instead

Some will say I am insane
but I love the light, but also love the dark, the pain
Light and dark, two very different things
but they are both part of what life brings. 


I miss you and I need you to come back
Because as much as I try to smile I realize it is only you that I solely lack
As much as I try and turn the other way
I always remember the word that you said and the unforgotten words I did not say
I remember the way you held me close to you as though you can never let me go
And I remember the way we walked in the hallway speaking and moving very slow
I remember the way you looked me in the eye
And I mostly remember the way you told me you loved me but now I just realize it was all a lie
Why did you have to break me?
What is it that you wanted that I didn’t give you because I was always free?
Why did you tear me up part by part?
Why did you have to break every little piece of my heart?
Why did you fake the love you said you had for me?
And made me believe I was something special; something that I can never see.
Why did you have to lie and tell me you loved me and will always love me and you will always be their?
But know that bond is broken and I realize that you will never ever care.
Didn’t you realize I was a little girl madly in love and naïve to everything you claimed to be?
Didn’t you realize I hopelessly needed you and you were the only thing I could see?
You broke me.
You tore me apart until I can no longer see.
I can no longer see the good in those who mean no harm and only have good words to say
And know I am lost and I have no idea how to find my way
You were there to hold me upright and lead me through every fire
You were the one who would lift me up higher and higher.
Now I don’t have you anymore
And I am dying inside right to the very core
I am not going to lie and say I don’t miss you every moment of every day
Because I do but I know the words I say will never have an impact in your life’s way.