I'm
so sick of everything. My bestfriend is a million times prettier
than me and I know that shouldn't matter, but it really
effing does. I don't want to be the jealous bitchy friend,
but it's so hard not to. There's all these different guys
that text me, only they're not wondering how I'm
doing. No. It's to get her number, or to see if she's
into them. I'm sick of walking down the hallways past the
guys that I like and having to watch them look right through me
and check her out. I know I shouldn't take it out on her
because she has no control over it, but it gets to me so much. I
feel completely invisible around her. It's in her personality
to flirt, and I know she never intends it to mean anything, she
does it with everyone. But honestly I'm sick of her flirting
with MY guys. I see their names lighting up her phone, and she
just tells me she's talking to them for me. But when you look
at the messages it's clearly not the case. I feel like the
shittiest friend in the world right now just for typing
this.