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I really dont care if anyone reads this or not i just need to vent. You can give me advice if you like.

Okay so i been losing a lot of friends lately. I just lost one of my friends recently (Brandon). Because of my ex. Brandon and my ex was already friends before we started talking. It wasnt my fault that Brandon texted me first right? No. The only reason why brandon started to talk to me in the first place was because he liked me. Yeah i knew because my friends told me. But my ex told me that everything was awkward between them. Well its only awkward if you make it awkward. So i guess you just made it that way. Me and Brandon was starting to be really close friends. I considered him one of my best friends since i mostly told him everything. But me and him stopped texting each other since so much drama was going on between the 3 of us. Plus my ex told me to stop texting him so things wouldnt be awkward. Well my so called "ex" still talks to one of my friends. So why cant i talk to Brandon? I swear you are just so stupid and confusing. Like one day you get so mad at me for not talking to you about how i wanted to get back together and then the next day you are just like "oh i dont think there is going to be a second chance" LITERALLY what is wrong with you? Playing with my feelings? Just....i loved you and you just dont care. its what ever i guess.

If only i could get a second chance...
maybe things could be different.

Im done trying. I am literally done trying. Cause everytime when i do...nothing seems to go right. I lose something everytime. I tried to be with a guy that i thought i could be with for a really long time and now he is gone. I tried to keep a friend or get them back but they are gone and probably never coming back. I try to make things right but they turn out wrong. So why try? I give up. Im not as happy as i use to be because im losing everything that i love mostly. I lost a guy, i lost a bestfriend... what more. I just want more than 2 people to care about me for once. So now instead of trying...im going to just let things go as they are and if i dont like it...then i will deal with it. Like i have been for who knows how long now.

You hurt me!

So don't come crawling back and
expecting me to take you back
right away.
 

Ok i just want to vent right now. You can read if you want maybe can give me some advice or something? Or you can just skip it like everyone else does...

Okay...so me and my boyfriend broke up...almost 4 weeks ago. Im still not over him yet... Of course the person that gets dumped never gets over the other person for a long while. Well I feel like one of my friends is going to end up with him because they been talking a lot lately. I know i shouldnt worry about this but i just do. I kind of seen it coming though because i knew she liked him before i did and i got him...The thing that got me thinking was he said the only reason he wanted to break up was because he wanted to get through baseball season. Well if you wanted to get through baseball season why talk to other girls alot? If you wanted to get through baseball you would only worry about baseball and nothing else.

I think he just lied to me and it hurts a lot. I think everything he told me and everything we talked about was a lie. I knew him liking me back was too good to be true. I mean come on there is a slim chance for the guy you like to like you back...well for me it is. I guess it just hurts and im overthinking and im jealous because i still care about him a lot and i still love him. I just have to move on right? Thats what everyone else says....i guess right now its my only option...
 

Okay im tired of people feeling sorry for me.
Ok me and my boyfriend broke up. It happens. Do i want this to happen? No. Am i going to let it get to me? Well it kind of already did... But do i want to hear you all say "omg im so sorry" or "aww you guys were so cute what hapened?" No i dont. It just makes me even more upset trying to tell you all what happened. Yes i love him more than anything thats why im not trying to get him back. He wants to focus on the sport he loves to play right now. I respect his decision. He said after the season he will see how he feels then. Do i want to get back together with him? Of course i do but it is what it is now. Im going to have to deal with it. Hopefully we are just friends. I dont want to lose someone that meant the whole world to me...

You cant always be strong..

sooner or later you are just going to break.
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Fake is the new trend.
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Everyone seems to be in style.
 

Some people are going to hang out with their boyfriends or girlfriends on valentines day.
What am i doing?

Going over my best friends house and going to watch sad romantic movies and eat chocolate ♥