Have you ever been in
love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so
vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and
it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You
build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of
armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid
person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into
your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They
didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like
kiss you or smile at you, and
then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes
hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves
you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase
like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns
into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It
hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a real
gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate
love.