teardrops123

I just need a break from this suffering for a little while 

i hate you .

i hate how much i need you .

i hate how i can barely concentrate on anything without thinking of you .

i hate how i want to cry every five seconds .

i hate how i miss the way you say my name .

i hate how i memorized your number . 

i hate how bad i want to call it .

i hate how i feel like no one could possibly care about me like you did .

i hate you so damn much for making me feel like no one could possibly love me because of who  i am.

I hate you for lying to me . 

I hate you for breaking my heart .

i hate you .

i hate you .

my friends think my grandmother is wierd and ugly. my grandmother  has a chemical imbalance in her brain . or the more popular/ techincal term would be  bipolar disorder . she acts out constantly and has a problem speaking . from the age of 7 to 30 she would go to the hopital for electro-shock therapy . she has lived with my family for as long as i could remember . she never speaks to me unless she is about to blame me for something or to ask me to do something for her .she has a sever problem speaking because of the shock therapy . my father and her get into screaming matches constantly . he tells hes own mother she should be dead and that he hates her . my father was beaten every ten seconds as a child .
i have lived with this for 14 years .