tearfalls

long but read please.

ok. this is for all the people who think one direction don't do any.

this is my story, and it's the first time i'm sharing it to anyone.

so in january i went through this depression and i would cut myself and i made myself threw up. it was going through a bad time, my parents were fighting, i wasn't doing good in school, i would get critized for anything i did or wore, no one notice because i always had a smile on my face but i needed something to release my pain.

one night i sat in my bathroom crying holding a thing of advil. i was going to take the whole thing and kill myself. i heard my mom coming down the steps so i ran into the computer room and acted like i was watching youtube videos. i hid my suicide note in my shirt. if you are wondering what it said, it said, "sorry i'm not perfect." but i was on my youtube account and i saw in my recommand side, the song moments by one direction, i've only heard what makes you beautiful by them so i decided to listen to this. words can't describe how much this song means to me. i cried when i first heard it and it made me realize no one would want me to kill myself. if it wasn't for that song, i would be dead. i owe one direction my life. that is why they mean so much to me. i want to thank the boys. they saved my life.

thank you for reading. you are all beautiful and don't you ever do what i did.

Moment In Time
Chapter Five

"RAGER!"
I jumI jumpe
 I jumped up to find Niall next to me, rubbing his eyes. I searched the room for the time. It was 4:30 am.
"What was that?" I asked Niall, leaning down to kiss his forehead.
"Like I know."
We heard footsteps coming near us, I grabbed onto Niall, terrified. Louis and Liam burst through the door.
"Oh, our bad," They said laughing, winking at Niall.
"What do you guys want?" I said, running over with a napkin to wipe the cake off of their cheeks.
"We had a cake fight and we wanted to know if you to would care to join," Liam answered sweetly.
"Oh my god, yes!" I squealed, reaching for Niall's hand, pulling him off the bed, but he quickly pulled me back into his arms.
"I have a surprise for Julia, we'll come down later."
"Suits me!" Lou screamed chucking chucking his cake over the ledge.
"LOUIS!" I heard Breanna scream.
They closed the door and I looked at Niall.
"What's the surprise?" I asked him, kind of disappointed I was missing the cake fight.
"I know you're sad we're missing the cake fight, but it's only Louis, Liam, and Harry. Breanna and Zayn are making out and Eleanor and Danielle came in to see what we were doing and they went off to bed."
"It's okay," I answered leaning my head on his shoulder.
"But, I have something better," He told me, standing up. "Hey Tess!"
Tess is my best friend, her, Breanna, and I go back to when we were in second grade.
Just seconds later, I saw my best friend. I was in tears, I've known her my whole life. I haven't seen her in 2 years since she was on a mission trip when I started working with the boys.
"Niall you did this!?"
"He paid for my transportation and everything. He really wanted to make you happy." She explained, "I got you something.."
Tess pulled out a box wrapped in green paper, I opened it to find, a signed box with Harry Potter's wand in it.
"YOU GOT THIS SIGNED BY DANIEL, EMMA, RUPERT, AND TOM?!"
If you don't know, I love Harry Potter.
"Yes! We met them when we had to go to London!"
I ran over and kissed her on the cheek, then I ran and gave Niall the longest kiss of my life.
"This is so sweet. I love you Tess!"
"Oh. Danielle and Eleanor said I could come to the special thing at noon!"
This is going to be so much fun. I took Tess's stuff and showed her to my room.
"Just sleep in my bed, Breanna will be up here later. I'm sleeping in Niall's."
"Goodnight, love you!"
"Love you too Tess!"
I walked back to Niall's room, I was so tired.
"Julia!!"
I turned around to Harry with cake all over him, "Yes Harry?"
"You're friend, she's hot. I'm asking her out on a date."
"Okay, now I'm going to bed. Good night love you!"
"Love you too Julia! Don't get mad!"
I turned around, "Why would I get mad?"
"Because of this!" He threw a piece of cake at me, and it got me straight in the face.
Then out of no where the rest of the boys come out, and start spraying me with whipped cream.
I heard Niall's laugh, I looked right at him. He didn't have anything on him.
I inched my way over, and I hugged him and I yelled,
"I hope you like this cake Niall!"
I ran back into his room and he quickly followed,
"I'm getting a shower."
"Me too."
Within 10 mintues, I got out of the shower and was back in clothes, Niall did the same.
We laid back down on his bed, I was wrapped in his arms.
"Good night Julia, see you in my dreams."
I kissed my lips, they still tasted like icing.
"Night Niall, you're adorable." I kissed his cheek and fell back asleep.
Best night by far.




 

I hear the beat of my heart
getting louder whenever,
I'm near you.

 

Moment In Time
Chapter Four

I made my way to the empty seat that was across from Niall, I couldn't keep my eyes off of him. He looked amazing. His tight light blue polo that had an american eagle on his heart, and a black cardagin on top of that. His skinny khakis, with his tall white sneakers. His hair messed up just perfectly. 
"You look adorable," Niall said poking my nose.
"What are you talking about?" I said, "I look like a mess!"
"Your statement is invaild gorgeous." He said kicking my foot with his. I leaned over a I kissed him. His braces were in the way, but I could careless.
"You guys scared the crap out of us!" Breanna exclaimed, "What are the whole point of that?"
"We needed a fun way to get you guys out here," Liam answered.
"OH WAITER!" I screamed to Harry, "I'm ready to order."
Harry came over, "What would you like to eat?"
"I want some of the pizza, since that's the only food on this menu," I said, "This is a lovely place."
"Your pizza will be out in 15 minutes," Harry told all of us.
"Julia, I got a better place then this dump," Niall told me with a daring look in his eyes.
"Lets go!" I said with excitement, It's Niall, anything could happen.
We snuck away from the rest of the group but I had to text Breanna to tell her not to wait up,
"Hey Niall's taking me somewhere else. No clue yet text you when I find out. Love you! <3"
She answered, "Have fun! We'll probably still up. Love you too. <3"
"Niall where are we headed?"
He didn't say anything, he just took my hand and I let him lead the way.
The two of us passed an old church when I finally saw a plaid blanket set out.
"I told you we would sneak away and look up at the stars," Niall whispered in my ear.
"Oh I love it!" I squealed, laying down on the blanket.
"Do you know what that star is?" Niall asked me, laying down right next to me.
"Psh, no. Do you think I paid attention in Science?"
"It's called Julia." 
I tried to find the words to say, but nothing came out. I grabbed Niall's rosey cheeks and pulled him in for kiss.
"You named a star after me?!"
"Why of course." He answered, playing with my hair, "Why don't we go to my room and watch a scary movie."
"Can I act scared?"
"I would love nothing more."
We passed the other lovebirds eating their dinner, "Hey guys. I named a star after Julia," Niall casually said.
"Awww!" We heard from behind us.
"Ugh finally bed!" I said, running and jumping on Niall's bed.
"Want to sleepover?" Niall asked winking.
"Sure babe." I said, I can't believe it. I have the best boyfriend ever.
"Lets watch an old scary movie." He suggested.
"Alright, as long as we don't watch it."
"Ohhh," Niall said, catching my drift.
He put the movie in, and within two minutes we were making out.
I pulled away to kiss his cheek, he whispered in my ear, 
"Your world is my world."
"Ok you belieber," I said pinching is hip making me jolt to hear his amazing laugh.
I rested my head on his chest while he played with my hair and within four seconds I passed out.
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Moment In Time
Chapter Three

As I fought my way through the pap infront of the hotel, it was almost 9 o'clock. I was going to be late. 
"Julia!" I said Liam scream, "Where's your man?"
"He's in the tour bus, why?"
"I need help picking out an engagement ring for Danielle." 
My mouth completely dropped wide open, "Liam! You're going to propose to her?! Aw!"
"Yes," He said with his adorable smile, "Please don't tell her."
"I swear I won't!" I promised, "Now if you excuse me, I'm going to be late for girl's night."
I pushed pass him and ran up the steps, screw elevators. Finally, floor 12, room 220.
"Hey girls, sorry I'm late Niall took me into the tour bus." I explained. 
"Oooo, did anyone's relationship status change?" Breanna winked at me.
"Maybeee!" I said, "Eleanor ditched me and we had to get a creepy taxi driver."
"YOU GUYS ARE DATING?" Danielle screamed.
"YES!" I said, with the biggest smile on my face.
"Finally!" Eleanor yelled handing me my t-shirt and shorts, "Go get changed. We're about to put in the Notebook."
I quickly got changed, but then I remembered what Louis and Zayn told me earlier.
"Hey guys, the boys told me they were having a boys night and they said to watch out." I told the girls, "I swear if they try and scare me I will punch them in the balls."
"They're just trying to mess with your head." Danielle assured me.
"Now come on and play the Notebook." Breanna said with the popcorn bowl already in her hand.
"Oh I love this part." Eleanor said.
"It's so cute, if a guy was hanging from a ferris wheel for me, I would so date him," Danielle said while eating another scoop of ice cream.
"When he hangs from one hand, I almost cry." I said, "Here it comes!"
"BOOM!" 
"Guys, what was that?" Breanna said grabbing my hand.
"I'm sure it was the boys." Eleanor explained.
"BOOM!" 
"There it is again, Danielle come out with me to see what it is." I said, "Eleanor and Breanna stay here."
"Julia, I think it's coming from the boys room."
"I have the extra key," I said, pulling it out of my Ugg. I slowly turned the key in the knob, and opened the door.
"There's no one in here." Danielle said, "Julia did you hear that?"
"That creeking? Yeah I did."
"JULIA! DANIELLE!" 
"That was Breanna!" I screamed, "We better go!"
"Not so fast."
"Who said that?!" Danielle said, we were grabbing onto each other for dear life.
"It came from the closet, lets go look." 
Danielle and I made our way quietly to the closet, I grabbed the reading lamp that was on Harry's bedstand.
"Oh three, we open the door." I whispered, "One, two, three!"
We whisped the door open to find a tape recorded playing, "Not so fast."
We ran back into our room to find Eleanor and Breanna sitting in the corner holding each other, shaking from being so scared.
"There were people outside our window, yelling for us."
"We found a tape recorded in the boys closet, that's about it." Danielle said, "I'm not going outside."
"I will," I said, "Anyone want to come? It's an adventure."
"Not me," Eleanor said.
"No way," Danielle muttered.
"I'll go," Breanna stood up, "Best friends do stuff together. We should all go."
"Fine." Eleanor and Danielle said in unison.
We creeped out of the room, and went down the steps.
"We have to make sure we don't wake Paul or anyone else up." I told the three girls who were trailing behind.
The four of us scurried past the front desk, and ran out the side door.
"Do you guys hear that?" Breanna whispered, "It sounds like More Than This is playing."
"I hear it!" I started to walk over past the tour bus. "Guys! You're not going to believe this."
As the three other girls walked over, we found Louis, Liam, Zayn, and Niall seat at four tables with an extra seat for the each of us.
"You guys did this for us?" Eleanor squealed, running over to kiss Louis.
"Now, who will be sitting with who?" Harry asked, walking over with four menus. "I'm Harry and I'll be taking care of you tonight."

Moment In Time
Chapter Two

I was standing look at Niall. Niall James Horan. The Irish hottie from One Direction who just kissed me then told me he liked me. This must be a dream, I secretly pinched my wrist. Ouch! This isn't a dream.
"Julia," Niall said shyly, "I have to ask you something."
My hands were shaking, "Yes Niall?"
"How would you like to sneak out with me tonight? We could look at the stars, and I might ask you something." He said reaching for my hand, interlocking fingers.
"I would love to, just text me when. Breanna's here and we're having girls night with Eleanor and Danielle." I answered kissing his cheek.
"JULIA AND NIALL SITTING IN A TREE K-I-S-S-I-N-G!"  We turned around to see the rest of the boys standing there smiling with a sign that said, "You finally did it Niall."
"Oh damn it guys," Niall said laughing, blushing redder than a firetruck.
"Come on Niall, we're having a boys night." Harry said sticking his tounge out at me.
"Yeah girls suck!" Louis said playfully, "you guys better watch out tonight."
"You aren't going to know what hit you." Zayn said winking at me.
Liam grabbed Niall and they all ran away. I was still standing there smiling like an idiot.
"BREANNA! ELEANOR! DANIELLE!" I screamed running up to my room. "COME TO MY ROOM!"
Breanna, was the first one there followed by Eleanor and Danielle trying to decide what ice cream they should bring.
"You'll never guess what." I said still smiling.
"What?!" They all asked in unison with eager looks on their faces.
"I just kissed Niall, and he told me he liked me." 
"YAY!" they screamed as my 3 best friends rewarded me with big hugs.
"Julia, do you want to come to the store with me to get the ice cream?" Eleanor asked sweetly.
"Yeah, Danielle and Breanna you guys go out a rent the movies." I told the other girls to do, "We'll text you when we get the ice cream."
"And I got Dr. Pepper for tonight," Breanna told me. "I know it's your favorite."
As Eleanor and I were walking out to the parking lot we noticed the pap, oh great.
"Eleanor! Look over here love!" "Julia how is it to live with 1D?" 
"RUN!" Eleanor screamed, we booked it to the car and quickly drove away.
"Do you think Niall really likes me?" I asked Eleanor.
"I didn't tell you because he swore us all to keep this a secret, but he would always tell us how much he likes you, and how he thinks you're beautiful."
"Really?" I replied, I don't think I could ever be happier.
As we walk into the store, I got a text. It's from Niall Horan. <3
"Hey , I see you and Eleanor are at the store."
I answered, "Oh hey, how do you know?"
"I'm behind you." I turned around to find Niall and Louis creeping up behind us.
"Louis, Niall what are you doing here?" Eleanor asked picking up the mint chocolate ice cream.
"Just wanted to see my two favorite girls." Louis said kissing Eleanor on the cheek, "Hey Niall don't you want to ask Julia something."
"Oh yeah," Niall said grabbing my arm, leading me into the back of the store. "So I like you, you like me. Would you like to be my girlfriend?"
"Hmm.. lemme think.. Niall Horan' girlfriend? I would love to date you." I answered wrapping my arms around Niall's neck leaning in for a kiss.
"Louis just texted me saying him and Eleanor raced home in their cars, and Eleanor got the ice cream."
"But Niall, we both can't drive." I said worried, "How are we suppose to get home?"
"TAXI!" Niall screamed, "Finally." As one of the Italian drivers pulled up.
"Where to?"
Minutes later we were back in the hotel. Me and my boyfriend, Niall Horan, were on our way into the lobby when he scoops me up and runs out to the tour bus.
"Niall stop!" I said laughing, he was tickling me like crazy. "I don't want to laugh!"
He pulled away, and then boom I was on top of him tickling him so bad.
"Julia! I hate my laugh stop!" He said cracking up.
"No I love your laugh!" I finally stopped and we were sitting on opposite sides of the bus. He started to make his way over, and seconds later we were in his bed bunk, I was on the top and we had the most passionate make out session I ever had.
"What time is it?" I asked.
"8:54." Niall answered playing with my messy hair.
"Damn it! I have to go! Girls night!"