thebeginningoftheend3373

Today has been the worst one since we broke up. I love him more than anything in the world. He's all I've ever wanted. Where do I go from here? Why did he leave me? Why is she so much better than me? Maybe she is better, but she will never love him as much as I do. I am really hurt. I can rarely sleep. When I do, I dream of him and wake up in tears. He is perfect in every way imaginable. I don't deserve him, anyway. What am I, compared to his perfection? I'm really scared. I built my life around him. He was everything to me. He was my world. Now, she holds my entire world every night. It really hurt me when he would accuse me of cheating on him. I haven't been able to think about even touching another guy since November, 2012. even knowing that he's with her right now, he's still all I can think about. I'm so stupid for thinking he loved me. That's one thing he lied about.. If he loved me, like he lead on, he wouldn't be hurting me like this. He wouldn't have cheated on me with her. Why did he pretend to love me? That's all I want to know--why? He was my life. The only thing that mattered. I put him before anything and everything. I feel so lost. He's all I want. But all he wants is to get laid. That's all he's ever wanted. I just wonder why he stuck around so long... I love him so much...

I didn't know "forever" meant ten months.....
When I said it, it was something a little more...

*Trying to sleep*
Him: "Yeah.. Um.. Yep. And then... I was on a sail boat.. and.. I fell... and was floating in the water with three sharks... and I dunno, man. It was crazy..."
Me: 
Him:
Me:
Him: "I just thought it was a cool story..."
Me: "You've never seen sharks, love. Go to sleep."
 

I'm in love with a GINGER ;)

 

If this is what love feels like,
I'm done with it...
♥
 

Coffee and Cigarettes are best when shared with you, we'll go to Waffle House or your mom's house and share a cup or two :) Yeah,  I have friends, but they have friends, and they have parties, and I'm so awkward. So whatta ya say, just as friends, let's see a movie this weekend, alright? Okay. ;)

Incorrect use of grammar/punctuation annoys the hell out of me.
Really, is it that hard to know that if you're talking about many dogs, it's just DOGS? Not dog's.
Or.. To, Two, and Too?
Come on.

♥
When you can look at his picture and not wanna kiss him no more.. When you don't feel like you've been hit by a train at the sound of someone saying his name anymore, when you can drive down the road and not be afraid of what's playing on the radio... That's when you know it's over. That's when you know you've made it over to the other side.