thegirlnextdoorrrx3

So, I have a question.
I had this "boyfriend" I guess is what you could call him, we were together alittle over a month and at school he never really talked to me, never walked me to class, and didn't treat me like a real girlfriend. We only texted, never talked on the phone. At my friend's birthday party I met my current boyfriend. We've been together almost 8 months. Well, at my friend's party he kissed me.. Some of my friends don't think I really "cheated" because the guy I "dated" before him was more like a "flirt buddy" and I need to know, was what I did really that bad?

Secret #8

My boyfriend and  I will be together for 6 months tomorrow. It is amazing that our long distant relationship has made it this long. I really do love him.. But it hurts that we live far away../: I hate walking around school seeing all my friends and other couples happy, smiling, and laughing together. It hurts../:

Secret #7

I wish I could tell him why I cry at night. This long distance is killing me... But I still hide how it hurts because I love this kid. I don't know if he feels the same about how far apart we live. Even though we only live an hour apart. I go to school and see my friends with their boyfriends and how happy they are..; </3.

Secret #6

My boyfriend will be going into the marines when he's either eighteen or nineteen. He's sixteen now and I'm fourteen. I'm not saying we'll still be together then, but I hope we are. I want to be with him through it all. It just hurts so much to know he won't be around for awhile. I'm also scared that he's doing it, but I'm not going to stop him from doing what he wants to do. </3. My heart aches whenever someone brings up the service. /:

Secret  #5
I'm sick and tired of my family blaming everything on me. It's not always my fault.. Why do you keep making me feel like crap...?

Secret #4
I hate that we live so far apart... We both do. But I hate it so much that sometimes I don't think it's going to work out... Then you prove me wrong. Every single time. Still, it's killing me inside. I'm sorry.

I love you.

Secret #3
He makes me happiest, he makes me whole. No, I'm not going to say I wasn't happy before he came into my life, because I was. With him in my life now, it just makes it even better.  I love my Superman, my Mr. Incredible; <3

Secret #2
He is my Superman; world; everything; my one and only. <3. I am completely in love with him. I never want to let him go. Even when we fight. I can't see my self without him. Honestly.

Secret # 1
Sometimes I think about what happened over a year ago. It breaks my heart I let all that happen... Sometimes I wonder if my boyfriend ever regrets being with me... But he always reassures me everything that happened with the other boy means nothing now, because its in the past.  I love that he doesn't judge me. He loves me for me. <3