thesecretsikeep

Status: waiting... for something that won't happen
Joined: November 18, 2012
Last Seen: 1 decade
user id: 339124
Location: bandroom/model congress
Gender: F
Me: weird, random, violent, protective, short, lonely
It's quite sad, but my life revolves around band and Model Congress

If you hurt my friends, I will hurt you.

"Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the imagination, and life to everything.”

~Plato Ω

Quotes by thesecretsikeep

Don't Cheat or It Won't Work !

1. Which is your favorite color out of: red , black , blue , green , or yellow ?
Black
2. Your first initial?
A
3. Your month of birth?
August
4. Which color do you like more, black or white?
Black
5. Your favorite number? 
822 (i have my reasons)
6. Do you like Flying or Driving more?
flying
7. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?
Ocean
8. Write down a wish (a realistic one or not. It's your life).
for my crush to like me back

when you're done, scroll down. (Don't cheat!) Answers:

1. Red- You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - You are conservative and aggressive.
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.
Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love.
Yellow - You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

2. If you're initial is: A-K You have a lot of love and friendships in your life
. L-R You try to enjoy your life to the maximum & your love life is soon to blossom.
S-Z You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

3. If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.
April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will not last long but the memories will last forever.
July-Sep: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.
Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.

4. If you chose:
Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at the time but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.

6. If you chose:
Flying: You like adventure.
Driving: You are a laid back person.

7.. If you chose:
Lake : You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people.

8. This 
wish will come true only if you copy and paste this onto your profile within one hour. Copy and paste this in the next 10 minutes, and it will come true before your next birthday
I'm forced to fake a smile,  a laugh, everyday of my life. My heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with.

~Kelly Clarkson
Because of You
I guess most of m story started in seventh grade. I used to be so carefree and happy. Then, all of a sudden, I changed. Became more gloomy and pessimistic. I became violent and rritable. I'm not sure how. 

The next year, I started hanging out with the person that I now consider my best guy friend, He is a very cheerful person, but I think we rubbed off on eachother. Sometimes, it feels like we are growing apart, and it hurts. Other times, it's perfect and i'm happier than usual.

But then, this past summer, a week before my freshman year started, I was at band camp. At band camp, I met him. The loudest alto sax player and probably one of the best-looking guys I've met. We never talked, I was always too scared, and I'm sure that he didn't want to talk to me. But, I watched him, and just from that, I could tell that he was nice, really kind, and funny.

Two months into the year, we have our first conversation. Over a a peice of paper he wanted me throw out. Sure, I would've done it easily, but I enjoyed talking to him. Not the best thing to have a conversation over, but it was something, even if it only lasted about a minute. Thank you to the lazy freshman that told him I would throw it out.

Now. I still haven't forgotten him. I don't think I ever will. It's not possible. I see him everyday at lunch, we're both n Mode Congress, and our band director is alwyas telling our freshman alto sax player to "Be like [him]. I have fallen for him more and more everyday. Now, I'm a hole that is impossible for me to climb out of. This is my story, well, the basis of it.
∞ 
Things we have in common:
band, Model Congress
Things that are completely different:
everything else

 
How is it even possible that seeing something can force your mood so far down? How is it possible that being the last to know something can make you feel so alone and out-of-the-loop? How is it possible that I regret one of the best days of my life, because of all the pain it causes me now? How is it possible that every single time i fall for someone, it ends up being someone who will never fall for me? How, just... how does this keep happening to me? </3
Listen, do you hear that laughter? Look, do you see that smile? Listen to her. If she says "I'm okay", DON'T believe it. Don't be fooled by the fake smile or laughter. She looks happy, but she's dying inside. She's comparing herself to every girl she sees. She looking at couples and thinking "I'll never have that. I'm never going to be good enough." She looks like she is daydreaming, but in reality, she is thinking of everything she could to to be better. When she says "I'm fine", what she's really saying is "I'm broken. No one will ever love me. I need someone." 
I love you more than Zayn loves sleep, more than Niall loves food, more than Louis loves stripes, more than Liam loves Disney, more than Harry loves cats. i love you more than the sun and the sky. More than the sea and the land. More than the rain and the snow. More than sailing. More than music. I love you.
"I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape. You never want to know how much you weigh. You still have to squeeze into your jeans, but you're perfect to me."
~Harry Styles
Little Things by One Direction