i serioulsy dont get
myself.
i have the
best.
i have a family who
loves me.
my boyfriend is
amazing.
but, i always wanna
leave.
not leave, like get
my stuff and walk out the door.
i mean, go
away.
as in, ya
know.
just kill
myself.
i feel horrible all
the time.
people give me
looks that could kill.
people judge me for
my past .
when they shouldd
judge the future.
people seriously
make me feel so worthlesss.
i shouldnt even be
here.
even when things
are going right,
something is always
wrong.
so yeah, i just
wanna go away ..</3
People take pills,
to be "happy."
to be "sane."
to be able to "function right."
well, even if it makes you "happy,"
or "sane," or 'whatever.'
They cant change just what you think.
They cant change the fact of me actually wanting to cut.
They cant change me thinking about hurting myself,
about me just wanting to checking out of here.
They cant change that.
but, what if there was a pill that changed what you think
?.
ive
heard so many words
but i had no courage
now were saying goodbye
dont want to misss you tonight.
tell me its not over now..
i can change your mind somehow..
i, i give it all,
i trip and fall,
for you.
& i, hope you wouldnt mind,
just one more try,
for something new,
i need you.
ineedyou. <3
dont be shocked if i cry.
youve changed me inside.
i turned my back on you...!
you were the only reason i pulled through,
i puullled through.
tell me its not over now
i can changeyour mind somehow.
my head feels so heavy.
my heart is so empty..
i, i give it all.
i trip and fall.
i trip and falll.
i, i give it alll..
i trip and falll..
for you.
& i, hope you wouldnt mind,
just one more try
for something new
i need you.
ineedyou.<3
if
my mom could see how i feel inside,
how hurt i am,
how destroyed i feel,
all the pain i always feel,
how miserable i am.
if she could see inside my head to see,
how everyday i think about commiting suicide,
if she could see everything,
know everything,
the least thing she would worry about,
is yelling at me all the time,
making it worse,
getting me stressed,
& making me clean my room,
wash dishes,
vaccuum house,
fold clothes,
clean bathrooms,
it would be amazing if she could just kno,
then she would be least worried about everything else,
just her own daughter. </3