thingsishouldhavesaid

hey, dont text me till next thursday please... im grounded for a week.:/ thanks!

yes, 704-798-8445.(: i have a witty bestfriend on here already, but ill talk to you tooo.(:

hey girl.(: & no.! i texted you. shes just yellin at mee, aha.(: hmu♥

well, im here to tell you my story; maybe you'll care. i was in love with this guy, id never dated him but iwould have died for him, i almost did. he mentallly abused me. he used me to get what he wanted. he said i was below a dog. he told me i was a , , and told me i was a dirtya** & thaat was all i was ever gonna be good at. i never even slept with a guy. he told the whole school that ive had 4 one night stands, called me a to everyoone. everywhere i went they would stare... just stare. it kills me the most. i loved him & he did this. but, you know what? i stilll loved him. i eventually got over his sorry a** after over a year. but, i still have those mental feelings and uncontrollable issues. everywhere i go, even walmart when i see people look at me, i think; 'they know im a , dont they?' ive tricked myself into actually believing it. instead of going to a regular highschool for my ninth grade year i went to an 'early colllege' with my bestfreind. but even she can put me down sometimes. if shes not happy , i cant be. she tries to break my boyfriend up, but not intentially always. well, ive been with my boyfriend 7 months. im completely over the other guy. & im in love with this one. what i forgot to say was, back in 8th grade all that stuff happened, i tried cutting. it felt good... so, everyday i'd almost torture myself thinking of how to get the blade & where id cut tonight.. i actually would starve myself. ive tried throwing up. but, ive never had a full blown eating disorder. i dont now. but, anyways the guy im with. he knows everything. how i used to cry everyday.. cry myself to sleep..cut. everything. he loves me for me. but sometimes im afraid hes just staying because he thinks illl hurt myself but i tell him id be fine, but the truth is i wouldnt be fine. ever. i am in love with him. he tellls me hes in love with me. & HE SHOWS IT TOO. i believe him. but i dont want him to stay just because hes afraid. everyday i think about killing myself. i have wanted to, SO BADLY. soosososos badly. but, havent. ive planned it, wrote my note, everything, but i havent done it. im glad i didnt. but, hey i stilll fight everyday, im fighting now. even though ive went through this and i feel the sccars, and i remember. eventho im adissapointment tomy parents and cant do anything right according to my family most the time. im still fighting. and thats all thatmatters (:

heeeey.(:

heey, girl i feel the exact same way. i have for quite a while. but, the only reason i havent done it is because im afraid if it will hurt. arent you? & i dont wanna destroy the persons life who finds me laying there. they will never forget it..

that sucks.! regular school here gets out in june, but i dont go to a regular school so mines today.(:

haaaaai :3

what happened girl.? text me 704-798-8445.<3 & trust me your not a waste of human space, to me or most people in this world!

thats exactly how i am tooooo.. hes extremley in love with me, & theres no doubt i love him, its just i have feelings still for my ex that i brokeup withtoo! i broke up with them to date this guy, & now i wanna go back but if ido i would literally wreck my bf's life. hes so sweet, & cares for me & alll but idk, sometimes i wish it was different..

yeah, the situation sucks! i broke up with this guy iwas dating for like a month because i thought i wanted to be with another one. well, me & the other guy have been dating almost 7 months & he reallllllly loves me. but, i am starting to kinda fall for this other guy all over again,, & i cant stand myself.

heeey.(: i was looking at your quotes & things, & if you neeed anyone to vent too you can vent to me.(: i am a cutter, & used to have problems with eating also.. but im fine now. & you can just tell me how your days been or how much youve ate and your proud or whatever, i wont judge, & i wont tell you to eat. ill let you do what you want. but we can just vent to eachother.(: if you wannna. so hmu 704-798-8445.

haaaaaiiiiii girl.(:
if you need to talk i am always here,, i could always use someone too sometimes. i cut... end of story. umm, lolol. well, text me 704-798-8445.(:

please text me noww..... dont do it beautiful. pllllleassssee.....<3

text me : 704-798-8445. it will be easier.</3

if you dont commit suicide or make it through.. comment on my profile please to let me no you are okay. iwont rest til i know. & i commited on your suicide note.. i love you beautiful, dont do this.<3

hiiiiii♥

yeah, i get it. i've been in a situation like that before; but when i did i broke down. & thats when i started cutting. & your not gonna do that. you cant break down. you have to keep your chin up & go on. life is always gonnna go on. Theres always something better in the future. (: i know its gonna hurt so bad.. but just keeep your head up beautiful, & show everyone how strong you really are. just stay strong<3 & im here if you need to talk.(:

& remember stay strong always<3 if you need anyone to vent or anything text me. my #'s on my profile.

hey girl.(: im sorry about your breakup, i truely truely am. but, you need to realize that you are way better without him. YOU ARE CRAZY BEAUTIFUL, NO LIE. any guy would be lucky to have you FOREVER. any guy would be lucky to have you as a friend, a girlfriend, and a wife. you keep your head up, and show him how strong you are. show him what hes missing out on. show him he isnt gonna get you back. Wake up everyday and look in the mirror & say i am beautiful, and thats the truth. By looking strong & keepin your head up, he will realize how hes missing out on an amazing girl. but, it will hurt him because he realizes your gone. so, keeep your chin up beautiful<3 & remember;
stay strong always<3 if you need me just hmu at 704-798-8445.(: you can vent.(: