Hi,
My name is Kayla.
I am 14years old from the U.S.A!
I just kinda feel like
venting. So here I go...
I have only had one
boyfriend in my life because boys don't really find me
attractive. And to be honest, I'm not. We dated for a month and
then broke up... a day later he ended up going out with my best
friend. I was feeling so many mixed emotions. I didn't know
whether to feel confused or angry or sad... I felt so effed up
inside. I was more mad at my best friend than him though. She knew
I still liked him. So now, I question our friendship. We have been
friends for a while, so I am wondering am I doing the right thing
here? I mean my mom told me "the challenge isn't holding a
grudge, the challenge is letting one go." I can't though.
I mean he told me he loved me then moved on in less than 48 hrs.
Like I didn't think I could be that stupid! Then he told me one
day it was because I was fat (even though I knew I was a stick). I
was 5'2 weighing in at 100 pounds. Then I started to believe
him. So I developed an eating disorder This happened when I was 12.
So I have suffered with anorexia for two years now. I know my
problems may seem small, but they aren't to me! I don't
need a lecture. All I need is someone to tell me I have a reason to
live. I can't tell my parents. They will FLIP! If you read
this... thanks for listening... Bye :)