but if we could, I'd talk to you
I'd ask what you think about how I feel
but feel ashamed immediately after,
as I'd feel it'd be an insult
compared to what you had,
which was actually something real.
I don't know if you'd judge me
but I'd trust that you wouldn't
and that you'd only want what's best
and with that said,
that you'd point me toward the future
and tell me that there are better things ahead
real things
maybe then again I'd feel sorry for asking
because your future already came and went
but maybe you'd just give me a kind smile
and remind me that mine still hasn't
and that I have a lot to look forward to
and that I should make the most of it all
while I still can
it's not like ghosts can watch over us
but if they could, I'd trust that you'd be watching
and if that's to be the case,
I'll make sure that you see something wonderful
and if that's the case,
I wouldn't mind running away
from false hopes
right now
and never,
ever
turning back.
Things to remember:
*
There will always be someone better.
* Boys are often
forgetful. Try not to take this too personally.
* Try to love through all
the chaos. There will always be chaos.
* Some people are reckless
with other people's feelings. Don't be one of those
people.
* He's probably not
actually looking at you from across the room, but you'll see
what you want to see.
* He isn't thinking
about you right now.
* That dream you had where
he confessed his feelings for you was just that - a dream.
* Everything happens for
at least one reason, but often for more than that.
* You deserve to be with
someone who legitimately cares about you.
* Whatever is worrying you
right now, you'll be laughing about once you're in
college - if not before.
because I know that this won't even matter after a few more weeks. Your life will go on and so will mine. You'll have a new beginning in college. I won't be a part of that, and that's okay. I'll be enjoying my final year of high school, lounging around in my senior sweats and daydreaming about the future as I fill out my apps. You won't be a part of that, and that's okay. But in a way, I guess you'll always be a part of me. Not literally, and not constantly; but you did influence me in more ways than one, and I can definitely say I've learned and grown from you. But I already know how we're going to end. Well, if you can call it an ending, because we never really had anything together anyway, except for maybe a few inside jokes and a summer or two in common. But I'm ready for whenever it is that you end up walking out of my life for good - or at least for a long while. Because I've gone through this before, and I've made it through. Knowing you was fun, even if I only got to know you a little bit. I guess it was an adventure of sorts. But I'm ready for all the adventures to follow, and I'd rather have a ton more to look forward to than to be forever stuck here with you. I want to see the world and experience a lot of things. And meet and get to know a wide variety of people, each with worlds of their own to experience. You're not bad, but wouldn't it be lame if your world was the only one I got to see? And with that in mind... I'll be ready to set you free. ♥
Yeah,
the idea of falling in love with your best friend is cute, but
don’t ever feel obligated to do so - even
if he really likes you - unless you really, truly,
deeply love him like that yourself. You can be his
best friend all you want, but if you don’t love him then
don’t you dare ever make him
think that you do, don’t take
advantage of how he feels… let him find someone
else instead, someone who could possibly maybe
end up loving him just as much as he
believes he loves you right now.
Someone like me, perhaps.