vanessmarques

i gave up
trying to be happy
a long time ago,
 everytime something good happens,
a billion bad things happen

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 it feels like her world
is falling apart around her,
but she doesnt dare
to pick up the pieces,
there isnt a point
of rebuilding anymore
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im tired of being
ignored,
walked on 
&+made feel unimportant
by all those important to me.
i just want somebody
to hear my silent screams

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i looked in the mirror 
& didnt recognize myself,
i have changed
&+ i hate it!
i took a step back
and one deep breathe,
all i wanted...
was to be me.
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what's the point
of living
when you're
already dead
  inside?

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Amanda Grace Hartley
you took your life on December 30,2011 and it shocked everyone. no one ever saw it coming.
i miss you sooo much and you will never know that but last night, i couldn't ignore it anymore.
ill never get to see your smile or hear you laugh again.
i was crying til i couldnt breath just talking to you hoping you were listening, hoping maybe you could help me get through everything thats going on and guess what?
YOU WERE LISTENING. you always have been because that night, the one thing i've ever wanted was given to me and i truly believe that it was your way of telling me that it'll all be okay,to just wait it out and i'll be fine. 
i miss you amanda,everyone does and i hope one day i will be able to see you again but for now i know you will always be looking out for me.
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 tears shed in silence
is the sound of a
h e a r t
b r e a k i n g
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you know you've stayed strong for too long
when you finally fall into tears
because of everything
that has been going on with your life.
 

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i've held them back for so long,
but i can't any longer
so im gonna let my tears fall
&+ let the pain
rise to the surface.
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do you know
how hard it is
to be given up on by the one person
who you thought
would never leave your side?