vchicken

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dear karen-kathleen,
i love you. so much
. i'm sorry for everything. i'm honestly really am. i feel like i don't deserve you in any way possible. you are, and always will be the most beautiful girl in the world. i gave you a chance again after i found out the truth, because i realized you've never had anyone to give you a real shot, and i was hoping, hoping to freakinn' god that you'd change. guess what? you did. i changed you. well... for a little while there. but i feel like now, we're in deeper shhhit then we've ever been before. and honestly? i don't know how to get us out of it. i feel like we're goinng to be over soon. and god, i don't want that. i love you, so freakin' much. honestly? you have no idea. i don't know how to let somebody go after 3 years. i'm sorry i don't. if i did, i would've let go by now. i wish they had like, some sort of book for this. but they don't, in fact, since they don't, we made something out of nothing. i love when you crawl into my bed and hold me close. i love when we're looking eachother in the eyes. i love our eyes locking in the mirror. i love you. i love the thought that a ring i pick out, would someday be on your finger. not a ring anyone else picks out. i love you. god. that's all i can say. i can't wait for the day when you're a marine biologist, and i'm a teacher. i can't wait for that morning when i get to kiss you goodbye, and know you're mine. forever. i can't wait for the day they say, "you may now kiss the bride". i just can't wait. like you said;;we're not a normal couple. most people don't find their soul mates at 12&+15. i feel like in this case, we're going through a big bump right now. we've been together so long, that we've already done everything we're able to do in our circumstances. god. i love you. you're so beautiful, you put up with me, which is the hardest of all, haha. you spoil me, you just, erghh. i can't even explain it. you give me those silly butterflies no other person can, even though you're a billion miles away. you make me see a light at the end of the tunnle, you make me see that love isn't a waste. i don't know what to do though, we've said so many mean things to eachother. and you told me you don't love me anymore. sighhhsighhsighhhhh! i'm not used to being dissed... but i guess it's how life is. i love you, karen kathleen. i hope you find someone who you'll love so much. and you guys won't fight. i hope you find someone you'll love unconditionally.
i love you karenkathleen.
--youknowwhoitwas♥.


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I’m writing this letter to apologize for the pain and suffering I have caused, due to my own selfish doings. My name is KKC. I am a player, a liar, and a cheater. I have made many girls fall in love with me, for them only to find out that I am not who I have claimed to be or cheating on them. Only three girls have come to know that it was all along both. I send my greatest apologies to those three girls.

Since I was twelve I have been dating girls online and also in several rural North Dakota areas. The girls that I dated online might better know me as Kile/Kyle J. Dredge. Kyle is a made up person. He is perfect in every way possible for a girl. He’s good looking, in , rich, considerate, caring, comforting, and most of all loving.

I am a very loving person but I have several flaws. As I said before, I’m a player as a result of my inability to say no to women. Women with emotional problems have always been attracted to me. As I’m sure anyone reading this, will know I am not good for any of these girls. What I deserve is a controlling women who wants nothing more than to own and control every aspect of my life. I found that girl and I didn’t enjoy being controlled by her, as I have always been in control if my relationships.

My greatest apology a bandgoes to one KLP. I will not give out her actual name as I feel she would want her privacy protected. I’m hurting right now, so forgive me but I fully intend to ramble on about this girl.

KLP is smart. She is beautiful. She is loving. She was once a very understanding and considerate person. She has taken on my life now without the false identity. She is a kind person and cares more about other people than she does herself. I have enjoyed spending time with her throughout the last 52 months. I am very much in love with her, as she was once with me. She was one of the girls whom I lied to. I told her I was a Kyle. She, however, is much smarter than I am. She knew I was not Kyle. When she confronted me on this I got angry and denied it. When I finally confessed, she was understanding. She accepted me for who I was. She still loved me and wanted to be with me. We were together for 52 months as I have said.

About four or five months ago we started having problems. I had changed my life around for this girl I had stopped cheating. I tried very hard to stop lying but unfortunately I was unable to do so. The problems with our relationship began when I started picking up more shifts at work, spending more time with my family, and playing my video games more. These three things caused me to spend less time with her. She didn’t believe that the reason I wasn’t spending as much time with her was because of those reasons. Instead she thought I had gone back to my old ways and had started cheating again. Who could blame her though especially after what we had been through.

We broke up and she started dating another guy. I was hurt because of this so I was doing anything I could to get over the whole thing. I began dating another girl. After this she decided she wanted me back. I of course wanted her back as well. I broke up with the other girl and got back together with KLP. The people we dated before caused problems though. We broke up again. It hasn’t been the same. I still love her and I would do anything to fix the relationship. I fear now that it has gone to far and can no longer be fixed.

I’m sorry for the cheating. I’m sorry for the lying. I’m sorry for the hurting. I’m sorry that I will never be good enough for her.

Sincerely, KKC 

 I just broke tonight
i tried to be nice
i tried to fix this
you kept leading me on
i thought i was doing better
but now ur with him
and hes just like me
only he has a dick
i snapped
i left my house
now im just driving east
some little part of me
still thinks that if i get there it will b better
i kno its stupid
i shud just go home
i shud just let her go
but if i go home
il just quit my job
il just quit school
il just lay in my bed
il maybe sleep
il maybe think
BUT I WILL ONLY BE SURVIVING UNTIL I GET TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS IM ONLY REALLY LIVING WITH YOU
il just pull over
take a break
til the tears go away
almost out of gas now
maybe il hitch hike
if i get murdered
it will only b the greatest favor
anyone has ever done for me
my whole life is falling apart my family is breaking up we have no money and im exhausted but worst of all u left me
we fight alot
its nothing new
the distance has been hard on us
but wel get though
im in love with you
and your in love with me
1500 miles wont keep us apart
its been hard with ur family
and its been hard with mine
its hard with me working
and u being in sports
its hard cause im always tired
or im alway sick
but either way if we just try
wel get through it
i love you with all my heart
i wanna tell it to the world
most people here kno
but do people kno there
when i get there after i graduate
wel have all kinds of fun
wel do all the things weve always wanted
and i will finally b able
to give you wat you need when ur sad
i know this girl. She is soooo amazing. She is everything I have ever dreamed of and so much more. She is so beautiful. She is so sweet. She is so loving. She is so kind. She takes such good care of me. I have never met anyone as awesome as she is. She makes me feel so good about myself. She gives me those butterflies that you might think only exist in movies.
But i was bad to her. i was mean. I was ungreatful. I did everything wrong. I feel so bad about it. I know that i don't deserve her. I as hard as i try, i can't figure out why she has given me all the chances she has. I cheated. A lot. I'm sorry. I am so sorry. Even if she ever forgives me, I know that I will never be able to forgive myself. She is everything to me. I messed up. But now I want to make it better. I want to make it up to her. I will do anything for her.
Now we have even bigger problems. Her mother is getting in the way. We are running out of contact options and I'm out of ideas.

I love you baby.

Karen <3

kno i need to leave her alone
but its just so hard when i love her so much
y do her parents have to kno
we both took it for granted
and i wish i wud have appreciated wat i had more


just typing thoughts i gotta talk to somebody even if its nobody

y is it so hard to do wat i think is right for her
when all i wanna do is love her
i kno im not wat she needs
but i do love her
im not the best person for her
and i havent treated her the best
but i am doin my best