VickiMouse*

I'm in the mood to vent and I'd love if you guys would give me some helpful advice. 
So me and my best friend are no longer best friends. We got into this huge argument this past week over something stupid but the feelings that I've brushed off have kind of risen to the surface and I ended up getting way more mad then I should have. 

So let me give you a recap of our frienship: 
We have known each other since the third grade, but we became really close friends last summer. From last summer up until this past February, I went through a depression. My brother cut off all connections to me and my family last summer. He was fresh out of high school and he was tired of hearing everyone telling him what to do, so he moved out and stopped talking to us. No calls, no texts, no vistis. Nothing. He was the only person I could talk to. The only person that I knew understood me. So when he broke things off with the family, I started thinking everything was my fault. That I was never good enough. From there, my depression just spiraled deeper and deeper. But my best friend was always there for me. She helped me get better and she was always there when I needed someone to talk to. She couldn't, however, open up to me. She would lie to me about being upset when I asked, but would post a facebook status about it. Or she would wait until I caught her in lies to actually tell me something. But it was never the truth. 

So, I felt like a lousy friend. I felt like maybe I did something that made her not trust me. I just didn't know what. She has some really tough family issues. My house was always available when she couldn't stand being at home. My mom always payed for her when we went out to eat or to the movies or whatever. I always made time for her and made her feel like she belonged somewhere and always had a friend. She just never did the same for me. She would leave my house early in the morning and go to the beach with her mom and other friends and not invite me. I don't mean to sound like a clingy friend, but it'd be nice to feel like she wants to hang out, right? 

I just feel like our entire frienship was a huge lie and a waste of time. Now she says she doesn't care about how I feel and she's always making a sarcastic remark to me. It makes me hate her, but I just don't understand what I did so wrong to get trated like crap. 

Feeling like a total bada/s when your
rootbeer is in the shape of a beer bottle.



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