wannabe

"You know," I sighed, glancing at my feet. "If you knew anything, you'd understand that the biggest problem with me isn't that I have depression or that I'm ungrateful or even that I just hate life. It's not that I'm crazy, or stupid, or just damn ignorant. I just never listen. To anyone, really. My skull is made of eleven layers of lead that can barely be penetrated by a bullet. Nothing seems to make sense to me simply because I can't make sense of that. And, I guess I'm sorry I have no idea what's going on anymore. But I don't know what I'm talking about, really. Maybe you are right. I'm just some stupid, crazy, ignorant, depressed girl who hates life."

"paradox"

It's been awhile since I've been online. 
It'll probably stay that way.
Since the last time I've been online, a lot has happened...
-First suicide attempt
-First real heartbreak
-Dated two people I didn't love
-First (real) kiss
-Made an instagram
-Got closer with my only two real friends
-Watched the To This Day Project for the first time (I sobbed. Hard.)
-Became addicted to Tiny Wings
-Almost five months with clean wrists
-Depression=No longer
-Scored audition with a talent agency I've been dreaming of
-Replaced most negativity with dance


I doubt more than five people will see this. But whoever is, thanks for everything. Witty's changed me, a lot. I hope everyone fufills their dreams, falls in love, lives happily.  I never gave an official goodbye before, but this will be it for awhile. I'll never forget you, witty profiles.

P.S. Smile :)

your inner beauty doesn't need makeup.
 

but the tigers come at night      
with their voices soft as thunder.      
they tear your hopes apart.       
and they turn your dreams to shame.        
 

"dude, we have a problem."

"what's that?"

"i met her last night."

"who?"

"her."

"....oh no"


 

 

 

                                      
 

                                                      "I hope you're different."
                                                                                                "...Me too."

I never wanna fall apart, 
never wanna break your heart 
never gonna let you break my own. 

"they were wrong."