Now that I think about it, I really hated high school. I mean,
think about it. You sit there for seven hours a day learning
information that you may or may not take an interest in. I know,
IT SUCKS. You're around a bunch of people you've grown up
with your whole life, whether you like it or not. I had some
friends, not the nicest but also a few true. My senior year of
high school, I said forget it I don't want anything to do
with any of my friends and went off to college alone. It was the
best and somewhat the worst decision I've ever made. I knew
no one at my school, and made some friends and a handful turned
their back on me. Also, I was planning on going to school to
be a special education teacher. In the time that no one liked me
at college, I had never been so focused on my education and what
I wanted to do for my entire life. I started to become curious
and learn more and wanted to obtain knowledge. Sure I was
actually very alone, but I gained a sense of self. When I came
home, I had never been so excited to see the good friends that
had actually been there for me. I'm in my sophomore year of
college now. I was getting so ready to take all of my education
courses then I just had an epiphany. I didn't wanna be a
special education teacher anymore. I panicked and didn't know
what to do so I just enrolled in a Communications Disorders class
and I've never felt so relieved. This was what I wanted to
do. Another factor of this year, I went in blind and opened up
more. I'm ACTUALLY happy being around people. What I'm
trying to get at, is the lowest points in your life will help you
discover yourself. Make decisions for YOU. If things are good for
you, it'll come back in your life such as my amazing friends
at home. It took me a while to figure to everything out and get
back up, but I did. It just happened. Life will set ideas right
in your lap, so go explore them. I realize this is a really long
tangent but things DO get better. As cliche as it is, if you set
your mind to something, you can do it.
Stay positive. Things will get better. I
promise.