wittygirl292

I can’t do this anymore. If it’s not one thing it’s another. Every time I get 2 steps forward in a good direction, somethings happens and i get pushed 5 steps back. When I wake up all I want to do is crawl back under the sheets, curl up into and cry until I’m completely numb. But I can’t I have to get up and plaster on a fake smile, hoping that people don’t ask about the long sleeves, because if they do I think I might just break down and cry. i don’t want to pretend anymore! I’m not okay, I hate my life, my body, my personality, hell I even hate my voice. The urges to cut my skin are sickening. All day everyday I sit in front of my computer and not feel anything because I cried my self to sleep the night before. I tell everyone I meet that they are amazing and special and have so much potential, because they do, but I look at my self in the mirror and see absolute disappointment, shame, and disgust. Nothing I do is ever good enough. My hair is never perfect. My weight is always to much. Forget about my makeup, it ends up smearing down my face by the end of the day anyway…
I’m just ready to end it all, good night and goodbye.